Now I understand what it means to look within yourself for answers

If you are truthful to yourself then you will able find the answer you are looking for.

I do not know why is it so hard to be truthful to yourself. But that is the only way for me to make progress.


Thank you

being truthful to yourself is the answer I have found

be yourself and be truthful to your existence, aspiration and Dreams. You can do anything. Period. No more writing.

Keep Practicing

would you do it for free.... the test for knowing that you really love your work.

if you do not have to bring bread for your family and friends......


Would you do for free and forever ..... the work you are doing?  

Its a good question to see the love in the eyes of the person.

Once the tiger has tasted the blood.... it never drinks the milk again...

Don't be ashamed of your mistakes... rather put yourself in vulnerable situation and keep learning.


If you make something so simple that almost everyone loves it at the first glance then you have something worthy.

The beauty of this thing is that nobody would want to use their previous systems once they see the new thing.

It will take time.... but be sure it will happen. All you can do is to work a little harder to make it happen quickly.


Future is already here.... it is just not equally distributed.

Your role is to distribute future.


Keep Practicing.

what it takes to create something that humanity has never seen and will never see again!!!!

this is a fundamental question that is bugging me ....

this is something so close to my heart .... aspiring for something beyond the perceptive ability of collective imagination of all humans.

How to make a team ... how to get such awesome souls under one roof to make something that humanity will cherish for ever.

I do not know ...... but this is turning out to be my next dream.

I have no sane explanation for why am I thinking on those lines but I think this is worth my time.

I believe everyone is a genius in his/her own way. I need to look for that genius and unleash that.

People are generally bound by their own perceptive ability.... one has to just show them the truth.... you are free to choose whichever path in life.

This is best possible in the vicinity of other crazy people who aspire to dream and work for changing the status quo.

Ujjwal ... use your training in psychology and try to find the best in people. Make a small group who aspire for the best in humanity.

I think I can do it.


Keep learning, keep improving, keep practicing.

Mastery learning

If you want to be satisfied in every moment, If you want to make every moment of your life as meaningful as possible .... always go for mastery learning experience. Let the journey be as difficult as possible, but if you are completely focused on making every moment of your life to be a mastery experience.......... you will always be satisfied with yourself. You do not need anything in this world to give meaning to your existence, you are complete. The only thing you can do after practicing this is to find more people who believe in similar things as live your life with such people.

this is a good parameter to chose your real family.


Kumar Ujjwal

Real things

counter intuitive points are really hard to understand by most of the people. I do not care if something is counter intuitive or not, all I care about is truth.

Giving importance to beauty is intuitive, simple and completely obvious  for normal people. But giving importance to real things that matter in life is cognitively hard.

Judge by action

No matter what you know.... I am only interested in your action.

The only objective this is action...

No matter what you know... I am mostly interested in your action.

Your actions are reflection of strength.

There is a limit on the number of meaningful connections that you will be able to maintain.

Choose people on the basis of their action. Period.

Be brutally honest with yourself

Be Brutally honest with yourself.

I love programming

1) I love meeting people as well - I  get to practice psychology
2) I love programming - it refines my thinking , hence improvement in the first

Keep practicing , keep improving your self/thought control.
Perseverance is a gift

Secret is Out -

It is pure hard work.... everyone knows everything... the difference comes in applying it.

Find me a strong enough purpose and I promise .... you will make it happen

Purpose is very powerful.... purpose is the light that pulls you out of darkness...

TO BE CONT.

Internet - A world of meritocracy

A place where best Idea and Execution wins.


All other things take care of themselves, if you could execute on your idea.

Try to aim for being the best in the whole human race.

It is more rewarding that way.


Practice ..... Practice.... Practice

The most fulfilling and enduring state of mind

You should aim for one thing and that one thing should be the best in the world.

By definition, attention is a limited resource.

You can not afford to let it run in a million directions.

Choose what is most important for you in your current understanding of the world and just simply give your life to it.

I can promise you, you will never be dissatisfied again.

Yes, its scary.... but it is one of the  most fulfilling and enduring state of mind, ever.

Keep Smiling

core- thought control- increasing rate of return

Everything that I was doing was for a simple question- I wanted to know the core of my existence and how could I take charge of it to steer in the direction  I want.

Answer -
Control your thoughts -keep practicing , it has increasing rate of return.

Everything is more beautiful and meaningful because we are doomed.

Everything we do gains more importance because we are sure of our nonexistence.

What an inspiration.

I feel like writing a poem

Everything is more meaningful because any moment could be our last.


Everything that we do should be done with utmost care and love because that is how you will ever leave your mark in the universe. Within the expiry date of the medicine called you, one has to give meaning to life.

One day I will surely write a poem on this feeling of temporary existence, which should be considered as a motivating TRUTH.


Thank You
 

controlling your thoughts

Even before you realised it, you possess a power that has potential to change the universe - your thoughts.

Use that power wisely.

Keep Smiling

Goverment and private sector

government is a reactive body-  you can not expect any innovation from these people.
private sector is a pro active body - self interest drives you to keep looking for the edge in the next move. These people have to constantly innovate just to survive, which puts private sector in a positive spiral of change.


It requires incidents of one sort or another to make government to do something. It require sacrifice of the part of public, before this sleeping dragon ever does something about any problem.
Why should people in government be blamed, human nature works on self interest.PERIOD

In government, people do not have incentive to do relatively better work. There is no threat to survival other than you senior suspending you, there is not incentive to keep improving your ability to work. Nobody loves any other person that they will care about them. And these all loving sages that are idealized in Indian society who are projected to do work for pure human love - are to be found only in MYTHS.

If normal public wants to change something in society, they should be given a chance in the private market.

No government program of changing anything in society has ever worked.  I would love to hear counter points about the aforementioned point. Let only the numbers talk, do not propel your bullshit- let the comparison be done between gov. and private sector for the same thing,  and see who could have done in lower price.


People are people, we get influenced by all powerful, all mighty, human loving , ancestral thinking that the king is all loving and he/she will one day solve our problem. May be he/she will definitely solve the problem. But sorry, I do not want control of my life in the hands of some external entity.
These are my problems and I will solve them. If any one is helping me in solving those fine, otherwise FUCK OFF.

I am not against any person, I am against this thinking of depending on someone else for solving your problem. Go get you pichwada out and fucking solve it.


The more you will see reality, the more you will learn about human nature. Its a good way to gain self-knowledge as well. You will learn about your own behavior and reactions when you will interact in society.


TO Be CONT.... ( private sector analysis remaining)

Meaning/satisfaction/happiness

They are not to be found in suits, cars, occasional show-off of wealth or power.

They can only be achieved from your daily activity. What you do on a daily basis, where you spend you time, what kind of people you hang around, how do you spend each and every moment of your life.


Most people have this erroneous notion that life is about spikes of emotions; No its about persistent state of mind and action.

Meaning is more important than occasional high of dopamine that you would derive from external sources- be it power, be it money, be it status, be it sex, be it food, be it any external thing.

I know in my bones that I feel most satisfied  when I have been doing something that has meaning to my existence. I know doing something of that sort has a more lasting impact on my satisfaction threshold.

Its either me who is wrong, cause I see no meaning in these emotionally spiked moments; or most of the people I have ever met have been wrong about what is meaningful in life and what delivers lasting satisfaction and happiness.

I think I am correct. Only time will tell.

I think I had made the right choice when I decide to leave everything to find what makes my life most meaningful.

It was not easy. It took many years to know the fact. I hate to use the word - luck, as I do not believe in it. But I could say in terms of lay men language that I think I am one of the most lucky people in the history of humankind.

I gave time to myself for finding what I want in life and I think I have found an answer for the question.

Now I know in which direction I am heading, so I could be sure and move in that direction in full throttle.

Anyone could do anything

I used to believe that anybody could do anything. But as I grew up, I stopped believing this because of my own stupidity. 

I need to know the truth. I had to respect both aspects before coming to the conclusion. I can tell you with some certainty - Anyone could do anything.

If there is anyone stopping you in the  physical world, he or she should give you the core reasons for doing the same.

believe - you living that reality in your head before it is present in the physical world.

You instigating a particular behavior on the basis of the state of mind that you have accepted to be true before it is the case in the physical world.

I firmly believe that anyone of us could do anything that we want. If you do not believe, let me prove you wrong.

Anyone can do anything

Every thing has an ending but learning and spirit of learning does not- now thats cool!!!

 You should do everything with the best of your ability, simply because it will end. But never worry, because you curiosity will always find something to hang itself.

You will keep learning.

Try to improve the quality of learning itself. Think about it.

You brain does what your heart asks it to do.

You brain does what your heart says.

Your heart makes a choice, may be rational or irrational but your brain will have to act accordingly.

You should believe in your choices and change them only when you have any concrete contrary proof in nature. People are liars and they will try to brainwash you with their bullshit.

You have no choice in certain circumstances, as their is lack of data for you to make conclusive judgement.


Knowing truth is more important because you can monetize you deep understanding of human nature and nature at any point of time.

This time is approaching.

Ujjwal - fuck society, fuck expectation, fuck everyone, exercise your understanding of humankind.

Believe your experiments instead of what anyone says.

Keep Smiling

Nature give itself up to the hard working person

always

Satisfaction is within

Do not compare yourself with anyone on the planet. I never did and would never do.

Everyone cultivates a particular type of nature and particular type of force of nature that is unique to their existence.

Answer to unknow unknown category question is not to be searched in the outside world.

Whatever you have cultivated, nurture that and improve it to the best of your abilities. 

Pick one thing and do it well, may be ... give your life to it.

Cultivate your energy and time, satisfaction is within.

Practice can make you whatever you want

Fuck you ..... who said anything was impossible.

Practice what you  want to be and you will see that yourself becoming that entity.
Journey ends for this question as well.

Practice and find the truth.

Fuck everyone who does not practice  a shit and have all types of ideas about everything under the sun.

Fuck you, keep you mouth shut if you have not practiced.

only practice is real..

most people are living within the permissible range of action that are defined by society. I  vehemently hate this constraint. Go make your own world....

everything else is just pure waste of time. No bullshit attitude is what to be aspired for.

Become an evolutionary  naturalist and observe animals by their action not their words.

People actually have quantum nature. People have dual nature ( may be multiple nature). But actions do not lie.

There is no secret for doing great work. Only practice, working day and night, can make you do anything.

Simply focus on the practice, it is real. It has objective existence. Its is truth.

Practice ujjwal.... Nothing is more powerful than action.

Person should only judge themselves by their actions. PERIOD.

Keep Practicing.

First solve the core business or the intent, before focusing on the technological that you can create.

Your customer hardly give a fuck about your IIT or DCE or Harvard degree. He/she is more interested in hid business.Period


I mean ... always .....always give priority to their business ambitions that they are trying to accomplish using your stuff..instead of this creation of yours.

No matter how many battles you will, your focus should be on the current battle with war in the mind.


Use power law, focus and solve the business problem first... everything else is peripheral from your customers point of view.

No answers are within your head.. so go and fucking talk your customer in the field.
He/she can tell you something in one line that you would otherwise figure out in months.

For learning sake.... talk to your customers, keep learning.



 

for past six hours I have been trying to fix a bug and I have yet been able fix it........aaarrrarhhfhgalggslh..fuck you bug!!!

This mother fucker bug has been fucking my head for past six hours. I could have done a zillion things in these six hours, but I had been incessantly pushing myself to fuck this bug. It has not given up,yet.


I have search all possible blogs and have been to all discussion forums, they were of no use.

I think there is something more fundamental that I have not been focusing my attention to.

I do not know how long I will be sitting with this fucking bug but I am going to kill you and I will eat my mutton burger on your grave.... you fuck.

If you do not give up soon, I promise.... I am going to obliterate your existence.

Let others be frustrated, if you believe you are right ... just keep doing... any change will always piss people.

If you stand for something that is against someone's believe or norm, they get pissed off.

Let them get frustrated, you keep your calm and keep doing what you are doing. When everything is said and done ...... Practice always wins against any theoretical believe.

Do what want to do.

I do not intend to offend others, but if your expectations and believes are in conflict with my practice then you change your expectations and believe. Why should anyone change their practice because someone does not approve of it.

I respect everyone, until and unless my actions are not directly physically harming someone.. I have full freedom to exercise my believes.

I have seen people getting offended by someone not doing what they expect.
I have an answer for you type of people - fuck you, I do not care about your expectation, I care about truth and making thing happen.

You do what you want, don't care about pissing someone - you will always be criticized, no matter what.

Do what you find correct. People have mouth and they do not have self control, so they will say whatever they want to say. Why will your self control affected by someone's lack of self control.

You do what you want to do, you achieve your goals, you die for your dream.

People will be people. Let them be frustrated.

But If someone has a valid point which is true in nature, ujjwal you will have to accept the truth.
You might like the person or not, it is another point but you have to accept the truth.
Nature does not care what anyone believes. If you are wrong accept it , if you are right keep doing it.
Nature runs on truth, society runs on force of will.
Use truth in nature to build your force of will... you will always win.

Keep improving , keep practicing.
Give your life to something more than your human expectation and you will see yourself becoming that concept.

Experiment 1.2
if I choose a concept and then give everything I posses to embody that concept - to manifest all my energy into becoming that concept- I know I will become that concept.


Thank you my teachers.

Fuck you gods, you are nothing but expected certainties. Now I have real certainty with me.



Choose a concept, work for being the concept.

If I am right - I know today that I am going to change the history of mankind in some ways.



choose a concept,give everything you have got to making that concept to reality and you will see yourself becoming that idea or you will die becoming that idea.... either ways you will be happy.


The world seize to exist in this state of mind. Its only you and you goal - that is the truth of being completely focused.

I have learnt this thing through experiment. No book can teach you, you have to walk on the path to understand it, that makes it scary.


Thank you my gurus.

Clarity is more important than verbosity.

 I have decided to give everything I have got to this dream of mine.


I will only post one post every day. I will do it because it will be useful in structuring my thoughts.

I love writing, but I love my dream more. I see it takes a lot of time from my day.

Not a problem - I will do it for learning the flow of thoughts and how to structure it.

But ujjwal programming is a much better way to learn how to structure your thoughts. I think one of the best ways invented by humans.

I should rather spend my time learning to programme and code , than to spend my time writing.

I want to write as I code. I do not care what anyone thinks about my writing.

Clarity is more important than verbosity.

Look for clarity.

whatever does not kill you , makes you stronger - choose your war and live for it.

I have been searching for some external source , for some absolute source of power for achieving your dreams.

I have spent countless hours reading about the brain and how it functions, countless hours discussing about how to improve it. yada yada yada....

But I am  more sure sure then ever, that it is not the brain that has something special. It is the choice of the human being to put his life at stake for something he/she believes in, for something that is more important to their existence.

The greatest genius I ever came to know was Newton. And he  worked his ass off to achieve what he wanted.  For others it might be easy to say that he was born genius-  wrong. He was an ordinary man who chose to work as hard as he could.

He gave his life to something and always kept that thing at the focus of his existence.

Having done all the research that I do not have time to elaborate here, I can happily conclude that there is no physical power to stop you or to instigate you to achieve your dreams.

If there is, then the power is in your choice to put your life at stake for the dream.

If you choose to dedicate your life to something, I can promise you .---- come what may, If you would not desert or betray the goal. You will achieve it or die achieving it. Both are worthy outcomes.


The irony of the whole story is that I knew this thing even before I started searching for the core of the strength in human character. I knew it, I had used it and I practiced it on a daily basis. But I was open to other options and thought I could not have known the secret behind all human endeavors at such a nascent age. I was wrong. I knew it. I had practiced it.

That was the force which allowed me to focus all my attention on one thing and transform me from a student who failed in hindi in class sixth to a student in one of the best colleges of the country.

I am amazed at my own stupidity. I am amazed that I knew this thing all along and was searching for higher and better answer, but there was none to find.

I give an open challenge to anyone who will ever read this, find me a better source of energy to make you do what you want to do and..... I will gladly give everything ,I will have done, to you.

I will start from scratch with your answer, I promise. But I need proof before I accept it. And I will  brutally rip you apart if you would not have done your research properly.


Now lets come back to the core of this post - I choose to give everything I have learnt up till now to this goal of mine. I choose to go as much pain and endurance as necessary for doing what I want.


Your true character comes out when you stand for something you believe in, this is my time to stand on my own words.


This is a bitter sweet victory.

I am glad that I know the secret behind achieving anything that I want in life. But the pain is  that I had to spend almost seven years to get to the point that I always knew.

But if you look at the bright side of the thing - I know the truth, that is the most important thing.

I know the truth, I know the path , I know the goal, I am ready to put my life at stake for this dream.


chahe pocha marna pade , chahe lamborghini mein chalna pade.... main apna sapna pura karunga... I promise ... you.

I was scared in the past that somebody my come with a better answer for that question, but I am sure that there is only one truth in nature. People might have different interpretation of the truth, but truth is only one.

If you have experimented and found out it to be true.... then no matter what ... you have to  believe in it.

I have seen ample evidence and have experienced it myself. I do not need further evidence, it fulfills both necessary and sufficient condition for something to be true.

Thank you everyone who stood against me, thank you for not believing in me, thank you for fighting with me .... as all those experiences made me a better more real human being.

I was an extreme practical person before I went on this journey were I became a philosopher. Now, I am again choosing to be a brutally practical person.

If I do not have experimental evidence to prove it.

It is not real, it is not truth.


People are liars, people use others. In their limited understanding of the
 world and nature, they try to manipulate the truth. I have to be brutally practical with myself, because I am the most gullible person to my own reasoning. If you do not understand something,be truthful about it.The journey from ignorance to knowledge of truth is one way,the first step towards it is to accept that you do not know.

No matter what, be truthful to yourself. Keep your calm and keep working for the choice you have made. Do not be afraid of these souls who do not have any substance at the core of their life and argument.

Do not care for what anyone thinks and says.

Do what you feel is right.

Do what you experimentally found out to be true, rest are all made up stories for children to play.

I am not against people, I am against their ignorance. I have to work for being brutally honest with myself and people around me.

I do not know I will ever amount to be something in the history of mankind, but I am choosing to be truthful to my heart.

To all problems and challenges-
I know you are there, I know you will try to stop me, I know you will drag me down.........but these are my last words - You will only make me stronger.

Come fight me!!

Come I am waiting!!

Come make me stronger.

Put everything you have got to achieve for your dreams, and again, and again for the Dream. Its the only way to live.

I believe in what I have experimented with, I know for sure that one has to give everything one has to achieve your dreams.


You have to put yourself on the line, you have to put everything that you possess to get to your goal.

Judge my life

I will judge my life by the type and quality of the work I end up doing.

Whatever we do, we should do it as perfectly by our standards as possible. Surely we will never live, we will not be able to create that same moment again.

Perfection is a habit, more than an act.

It is your duty to define perfection and then achieve it. Nobody will come and hold your hand and take you to perfection.

The more perfection you demand from yourself , the lesser number of people you will find around yourself who would have done work of similar quality.

The only person who could challenge you is yourself.

The only person who would stop you from achieving perfection is yourself. I have not find any external force to persistently keep you in control. 

Intermittently, things could hold your attention. But, in the long run it is you and your personal idea of perfection that will push you. If you are satisfied with the level of perfection you have attained then your progress will be stopped(experienced).

Every act has to be better quality than the previous one, sign of a learning being.

Path is clear, goal is certainty, walk and walk, bleed and bleed.... you will go beyond what humans think is possible.

Keep Smiling

hans zimmer - its good but its not perfect

many people can find the almost good stuff, but creating the perfect match is the art.

 You do not  want to let down your brothers - hans zimmer ( corroborating mimetic behaviour)

You could actually assemble a team of people who have given their life to what they want to do and live every second for it.


Nobody push me as hard as I push myself  - hans zimmer.

All genius that I know have pushed themselves willingly beyond what they perceived to be their limits.


I am sure, it is intrinsic inspiration of the work/activity in itself that goes much beyond any external
motivation.



I have got one life and I better do it right. -  hans zimmer

The only cartain thing that I have experienced in my life - Death

Uncertainty is the problem, uncertainty is root of fear, uncertainty doesn't let us express ourselves completely.

There is always a nagging voice in your head that says , you are not good enough.

I have found an answer to that nagging but, death.

It is the only thing that is certain.

 I am objectively trying to understand it.

Yes, its true.... in the face of death ... all your fear will be insignificant.

You have nothing to fear in this world, because even before your manufacturing date was given to you- your expiry date was established.


It might be many decades in the future, but you can be absolutely sure about it.

What if you could derive some certainty from this knowledge.

You have nothing to fear, as you are anyhow dead for sure in the long run. So, you might as well try everything you want to before your balloon burst.

Respecting death and deriving certainty in things that we do using death could enhance degree of certainty in anyone's life.

 I ask you, will you be afraid if you are dead. I think - NO

How come this illusion of reality stop you from seeing you are already dead in the long run.

So go get your butts together and create some more certainty.

Nature needs a few people who can create certainty for others to walk behind those tracks and call it life.

Your goal should be to seek and create certainty in everything you touch.

go to the core and see how real things are, if they are not - go find or create certainty somewhere else.


Remember to ask yourself - is it as certain as death, if not lets make it.

Keep Smiling

only one thing at a time

Every cell in my body is asking me to do only one thing at a time. Do it with all your energy , love , vigor, passion, dedication, persistence, determination... but do only one thing.

This is the next stage of controlling your brain.

After 3 months of dedicated meditation, now my brain automatically asking me to focus my attention on only one thing at a time.

Nothing but one thing, and until you are done with it. You can not even think of other things. I believe it the way to improve the quality of your life.

I will never in my life believe in anything without experimental proof

Never..............have paid a huge price. But it has been an important lesson.

Everything has to be engineered

When nothing happens on its own, then how the fuck money will flow in your direction.... without you fucking working to get it on the first place.

I have no shame in accepting that I was one of those guys who would focus on the project or the technology or the product ... but not on how one would make money out of it or how to sustain it.

But today I am disillusioned, every thing has to be meticulously programmed and designed- be it product or how much money we are going to make.

It was the part of the process of being an entrepreneur that I had willingly rejected- but I was wrong.

Money gives you freedom to experiment more, learn quickly, to be yourself - and one has to incorporate it in the entire story of building of the company. Otherwise, you will not have a company.


I am a slow learner -- that is part gift part curse. Depends on how I want to take it. But I have not been persuaded in any wrong direction up till now, this partly because I have delayed understanding of things. So, you get to have a lot of context before you start making the picture. Clarity is really painful process, but once you have it - world is yours.


Keep Smiling