A promise

Any and every dicision that I will ever take is life will be based on experiment, without experiment I will not think more about it.

"Newton's Gift"

"There are many backchods around us..... save yourself and be a doer"

Negative spiral and Positive spiral

Its funny.....



I few years ago when I was struggling with depression, I had felt a negative spiral in my head. I will explain what I mean, but in simple terms, the more you feel bad about something the more your brain makes you feel bad about everything. Its a vicious cycle, one that took a long time for me to understand.

Let me go a bit deeper.....
There are neurotransmitters( small molecules ) that get released when you feel bad about anything. Its brain's way of making you realize that the experience you just had was negative for your survival......... remember it and stay away for it. But what happens, we remember to remember the negative experience; instead of remembering not to remember the negative experience. So the more negative pictures and images and expressions , we iterate in our head the more it gets strengthened. And we find ourselves in the loop where we are helpless, if we do not understand how to control our brain( which is the case with most of the people).


I have a firsthand experience of this phenomenon, I have practically lived with it for seven years.


The bright side of the story........


I am an engineer, and we understand thing in terms of similarity , differences , models , schematics and proofs. Basically, we are nerds who love to go deeper into the problem until the problem give itself up or we practically destroy our lives for stupid problems. So, I resolved myself to solve the problem of negative spiral. Then, the first question that came to my mind was to ask for the exact opposite. If brain has a negative spiral, does it have a positive spiral?


Guess what..... Yes it does..... or at least yes in my understanding and experience.


No matter how shit I  feel, if I sit and just smile while keeping my focus on the smile... something magical happens.

Over period, everything vaporizes and I could get out of that vicious cycle of negativity.
If I keep practicing it for prolonged period, magical stuff starts happening.... such as ... I could focus better... I would greet everyone with a gaaziiilllioonnnn mile long smile.... everywhere I go things become cheerful...etc.


I think I have found the positive spiral as well.......

I have a theory for the positive spiral as well.... but that is for the next time...

keep smiling

Attention quality

I firmly believe that what you put attention to determines the quality of your life.

I had asked a question to myself , what is the currency of life.

My premature answer was - Time

I was wrong the current answer is Attention.

I could give you all the time in the world, but you will not be able to do it if you have not been putting your attention.

One more qualifier - it is not only the attention part that is important but quality of attention.

Quality of attention has a huge impact on our quality of actions.

If I could calculate the quality of my attention at this very moment then I could be better informed that I should do particular kind of work or not, in this moment.


Attention quality determines the certainty you are going to live by.

The less attention you put in your action.... the lesser will be the certainty in your action.

Fear kicks in uncertainty.

Everybody was nobody before they chose to be somebody

Great people are not born.... greatness is chosen.

You find something that is more valuable to your existence than your existence.

You give your life to a concept and gradually through perseverance and practice .... you see yourself becoming that concept.


In my life I am choosing to be certainty.


I want to become this concept.... I will give my life to it.



This is Certain!!!!

DATA DATA everywhere....DATA DATA... no one to care...... accept me!!!

I am trying to find data about UP citizens

thereare so many sites that I have to scan.... I as ked myself why cant there be a single place where I could get data of the entire world and share it with anyone who is interested.

Everyone knows that data is going to be the king of the future... everyone wants data inone form or another  everyone have to use it in one form or the other then why their is no such place where I can find all data in the world.

the design of site has to be really simple

just one title and attachment file.

once anyone search the list will come with votes on it. simple.... people will not waste hours and hours searching for the more ubiquitous thing in the world. DATA

The first step...

Make your own rules

what would you like to do, once you have everything you ever wanted...

I believe you should ask this question in each and every situation...


i was utterly confused for a few days.

 day and night people were suggesting me  that i should do this or that ,it makes a lot of sense..... but deep within my mind i knew that it was not so.

one day this pain was unbearable, i ask myself one beautiful question.....

i know that there are material aspirations of my family members, and  it would be wrong if i do not admit that i have my own material aspirations... but what if one day all these aspirations get fulfilled?what would be left to be done?

what if one day i have  everything  ever wanted ?
what would be the one thing that i would do till the end of my life?
... simple  i came to this beautiful conclusion.... even if i have all the money this world has, it will not give me any happiness.  i tell this from my own experience.... i my childhood there were many things that i had dreamt of having or doing. monetary limitation does not care about you material aspirations, hence in my childhood i did not enjoy things i wanted. but as grew up,i almost had everything i had dreamt in my childhood( i should mention... i had better stuff than  i had imagined).  it didnot give me any pleasure...
there was only one thing that was worth my time on the planet ..... knowledge, experiential and experimental knowledge