I love what I do... hence I keep doing for as much a time period as I can

this one is going to be lengthy


I never worked in my life.


If you  define making love as working then I have been working a lot. But I have only done things that loved, if I had to do something that I did not  love I would slack in my commitment.


I have been finding for thing that have meaning for my existence, and have found a few as well.

It was hard, the journey to find what you love is painful and filled with obstacles. I think it was pure love on my end that I kept on going in search of that mysterious thing that I could do all my life.

I have found many - but the most important one right now is - pragramming.

People who all have done something more then a mere human being could have achieved, have done only because they were in love with something and they kept on doing it ... even beyond rational expectations of society.

Love ujjjwal ...love more... it has incremental rate of return....

Love is an abstraction I use to express something that fits my model on an intuitive level. I do not completely understand all the parameters for liking something so much that I could give my life for it, hence to simplify it to my brain I just call it love.



But who cares.... if you want to keep on doing

No matter how hard and painful it is .... if you love it...keep doing.. life is too small and you don't know whether you will find again something that you will love.


Let the whole world shut, let the whole world be gone, let all the people disappear, let yourself fly in the outer space, let your my be surfing in the cold trenches of galaxies, let your imagination be at the center of the sun and feel the eternal freedom that every atom in your body deserves.

Once you make that journey and come back you will see this world in a slightly different way.
Or to put it another way, You will never be the same.


I have found that if I choose to put my attention on something I love, I will make it happen even at the cost of my life.


Working hard was the only gift I had given to myself.

I just want to see how would it feel to work 20 hours a day...I would be glad that I did that experiment.

Life would have been boring without experiments--- bring it on!!


Let us define the experiment -
20 hours a day work - 19 hours coding, 1 hour meditation
can not leave your desk
one hour meditation included
Keep Newton at the center.

I am not intelligent - fuck I do not know what it means to be intelligent, but I am sure I am hard working chap

Attention is the key and working your butts off with that attention for as long it takes to reach the predefined goal.Period.

Being truthful to yourself

Now, I think I know what I was missing from my existence. I think now I do understand what Richard feynman, Newton, Steve Jobs were saying when they implied that you will be the most gullible person to your own intelligence.

The easiest person to be fool will be you, so better keep a check on yourself.

Be truthful to yourself and you can do anything.


Know yourself..... be yourself.... be truthful to yourself.

Practice is my religion, attention is my god

Man has many fears in his head, always nagging ,and trying to protect him from something irrational.

But this machinery is out dated.


Using practice you can go beyond what you perceive to be your limits.

Ability to control your attention and deliberately pushing your self using practice will make your a better human being, may be a god. But who cares..... you do it for love.

Joseph campbell - thank you.... for sharing your knowledge with me, thank you for helping me coming out of my own limited perception of history. Each one of us is a god in its own right.

Each one of us has traversed a difficult journey from a simple cell in the womb to the breathing human being to the one who has endured society and has the ability to survive.

Each of us are gods, fuck anyone who denigrates you.

Know yourself , be yourself...... Everything is temporary other than your actions.

Its hard to live this moment for the sake of this moment, but that is the ideal. Every moment is eternity if you are completely attending to it. Ages are nothing if you never focused.

I can not describe in words, the feeling that one of your major journey ends.
You have to go through fire, in order to know exactly how the fire feels.

Practice - one minute is more than eternity of theory

Nature will always judge you on the basis of your practice. The most powerful variable that correlates with your success is practice. There are other  variables, I do agree,but none are stronger then your practice.

The world will give itself up, if you keep on practicing.

There are no secrets reaming in this sphere.

Lets search answer for other questions.

Keep Smiling

End of the quest - attention is the only true asset we can control

After so many years of search about what makes us humans special. What is the reason that this feeble creature has been able to spread so far and achieve so much, even after being just another ape.


I have come to a simple conclusion-
 There are two assets that make us unique -
1) time - uncontrollable asset.
2) ability to put our attention on a desired object at our will - controllable asset.


And there is only one controllable asset - attention...
If I keep my training up, then I will reach the core of this asset. There has not been anything more difficult than this journey, form not knowing about my self to this conclusion that the most important thing in my life are my questions and the only way to answer those questions is to use my attention as I deem fit.

Search complete..... no more discussion on this topic from now onwards.


core of my existence - my personal questions
method to answer them - controlling my attention
nothing else.

structure and interpretation of computer programs .... mind blowing lectures

I  am in great debt to these two professors who are teaching me how think about computer and programming in general.

I am loving it. These guys speak my language, they talk of abstraction, inheritance, multiple levels, black box....wowow... that is amazing.

I think next few days are going to be absolutely mind blowing.

Thank you  my teachers.

Keep Smiling