I know it is.
I have been through existential crisis at the age of 19.
Repercussions of experience has been permanently carved in my head................. when I compare any type of pain physical or psychological or emotional...........the amplitude of these experience is nothing in comparison to the roller-coaster ride i had been through at the age of 19.
this is my power and this is my curse.
I think I have experienced one of the deepest kind of psychological pain in my teens, and over the course of understanding it and recuperating from it ; I have gain really high level of pain threshold.
I have a once in a lifetime chance of using this learning.....
I have an experiment in my head..
I have heard that making money is hard both psychologically and physically hard. But my question is ...how hard?
an addition to this question is the question...... the pain one feels while trying to make some money,say a billion dollars, and the pain I experienced coming out of the existential crisis........if i have to compare.....then I have to experience the former as well, with as much objectivity as possible..
Because the quantification of latter pain is pretty simple ...imagine yourself digging for straight 10 years......not know where you are going, not knowing even if it worth it and top it all ...nobody to understand you or your effort....this pretty much sums it up for the latter experience.
I think I should try to see the pain one goes through while trying to make money ..that to huge amount of money.... just to make an objective or as objective as possible judgement about the latter pain.
The way I have described it seems interesting to me.....
I and my best friend have collectively dig a pretty bg financial how in these 3 years of our startup journey together.....
we have gone through a lot of shitty moments together....... But i just want to know ...... have I already experienced the worst a person can ?
I think I have... but we will get to know.
The hypothesis is that I have already experience the worst.
If there is even a slight reality to this hypothesis then it is the most amazing thing that ever happened to me. And by deduction, I will never be in more pain than I have already been into. :)
Hence I know for a fact that the worst is over....the only thing that is remaining is the Upside of having this power.
Lets win.
I have been through existential crisis at the age of 19.
Repercussions of experience has been permanently carved in my head................. when I compare any type of pain physical or psychological or emotional...........the amplitude of these experience is nothing in comparison to the roller-coaster ride i had been through at the age of 19.
this is my power and this is my curse.
I think I have experienced one of the deepest kind of psychological pain in my teens, and over the course of understanding it and recuperating from it ; I have gain really high level of pain threshold.
I have a once in a lifetime chance of using this learning.....
I have an experiment in my head..
I have heard that making money is hard both psychologically and physically hard. But my question is ...how hard?
an addition to this question is the question...... the pain one feels while trying to make some money,say a billion dollars, and the pain I experienced coming out of the existential crisis........if i have to compare.....then I have to experience the former as well, with as much objectivity as possible..
Because the quantification of latter pain is pretty simple ...imagine yourself digging for straight 10 years......not know where you are going, not knowing even if it worth it and top it all ...nobody to understand you or your effort....this pretty much sums it up for the latter experience.
I think I should try to see the pain one goes through while trying to make money ..that to huge amount of money.... just to make an objective or as objective as possible judgement about the latter pain.
The way I have described it seems interesting to me.....
I and my best friend have collectively dig a pretty bg financial how in these 3 years of our startup journey together.....
we have gone through a lot of shitty moments together....... But i just want to know ...... have I already experienced the worst a person can ?
I think I have... but we will get to know.
The hypothesis is that I have already experience the worst.
If there is even a slight reality to this hypothesis then it is the most amazing thing that ever happened to me. And by deduction, I will never be in more pain than I have already been into. :)
Hence I know for a fact that the worst is over....the only thing that is remaining is the Upside of having this power.
Lets win.
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