Now I understand what it means to look within yourself for answers

If you are truthful to yourself then you will able find the answer you are looking for.

I do not know why is it so hard to be truthful to yourself. But that is the only way for me to make progress.


Thank you

being truthful to yourself is the answer I have found

be yourself and be truthful to your existence, aspiration and Dreams. You can do anything. Period. No more writing.

Keep Practicing

would you do it for free.... the test for knowing that you really love your work.

if you do not have to bring bread for your family and friends......


Would you do for free and forever ..... the work you are doing?  

Its a good question to see the love in the eyes of the person.

Once the tiger has tasted the blood.... it never drinks the milk again...

Don't be ashamed of your mistakes... rather put yourself in vulnerable situation and keep learning.


If you make something so simple that almost everyone loves it at the first glance then you have something worthy.

The beauty of this thing is that nobody would want to use their previous systems once they see the new thing.

It will take time.... but be sure it will happen. All you can do is to work a little harder to make it happen quickly.


Future is already here.... it is just not equally distributed.

Your role is to distribute future.


Keep Practicing.

what it takes to create something that humanity has never seen and will never see again!!!!

this is a fundamental question that is bugging me ....

this is something so close to my heart .... aspiring for something beyond the perceptive ability of collective imagination of all humans.

How to make a team ... how to get such awesome souls under one roof to make something that humanity will cherish for ever.

I do not know ...... but this is turning out to be my next dream.

I have no sane explanation for why am I thinking on those lines but I think this is worth my time.

I believe everyone is a genius in his/her own way. I need to look for that genius and unleash that.

People are generally bound by their own perceptive ability.... one has to just show them the truth.... you are free to choose whichever path in life.

This is best possible in the vicinity of other crazy people who aspire to dream and work for changing the status quo.

Ujjwal ... use your training in psychology and try to find the best in people. Make a small group who aspire for the best in humanity.

I think I can do it.


Keep learning, keep improving, keep practicing.

Mastery learning

If you want to be satisfied in every moment, If you want to make every moment of your life as meaningful as possible .... always go for mastery learning experience. Let the journey be as difficult as possible, but if you are completely focused on making every moment of your life to be a mastery experience.......... you will always be satisfied with yourself. You do not need anything in this world to give meaning to your existence, you are complete. The only thing you can do after practicing this is to find more people who believe in similar things as live your life with such people.

this is a good parameter to chose your real family.


Kumar Ujjwal

Real things

counter intuitive points are really hard to understand by most of the people. I do not care if something is counter intuitive or not, all I care about is truth.

Giving importance to beauty is intuitive, simple and completely obvious  for normal people. But giving importance to real things that matter in life is cognitively hard.

Judge by action

No matter what you know.... I am only interested in your action.

The only objective this is action...

No matter what you know... I am mostly interested in your action.

Your actions are reflection of strength.

There is a limit on the number of meaningful connections that you will be able to maintain.

Choose people on the basis of their action. Period.

Be brutally honest with yourself

Be Brutally honest with yourself.

I love programming

1) I love meeting people as well - I  get to practice psychology
2) I love programming - it refines my thinking , hence improvement in the first

Keep practicing , keep improving your self/thought control.
Perseverance is a gift

Secret is Out -

It is pure hard work.... everyone knows everything... the difference comes in applying it.

Find me a strong enough purpose and I promise .... you will make it happen

Purpose is very powerful.... purpose is the light that pulls you out of darkness...

TO BE CONT.

Internet - A world of meritocracy

A place where best Idea and Execution wins.


All other things take care of themselves, if you could execute on your idea.

Try to aim for being the best in the whole human race.

It is more rewarding that way.


Practice ..... Practice.... Practice

The most fulfilling and enduring state of mind

You should aim for one thing and that one thing should be the best in the world.

By definition, attention is a limited resource.

You can not afford to let it run in a million directions.

Choose what is most important for you in your current understanding of the world and just simply give your life to it.

I can promise you, you will never be dissatisfied again.

Yes, its scary.... but it is one of the  most fulfilling and enduring state of mind, ever.

Keep Smiling

core- thought control- increasing rate of return

Everything that I was doing was for a simple question- I wanted to know the core of my existence and how could I take charge of it to steer in the direction  I want.

Answer -
Control your thoughts -keep practicing , it has increasing rate of return.

Everything is more beautiful and meaningful because we are doomed.

Everything we do gains more importance because we are sure of our nonexistence.

What an inspiration.

I feel like writing a poem

Everything is more meaningful because any moment could be our last.


Everything that we do should be done with utmost care and love because that is how you will ever leave your mark in the universe. Within the expiry date of the medicine called you, one has to give meaning to life.

One day I will surely write a poem on this feeling of temporary existence, which should be considered as a motivating TRUTH.


Thank You
 

controlling your thoughts

Even before you realised it, you possess a power that has potential to change the universe - your thoughts.

Use that power wisely.

Keep Smiling

Goverment and private sector

government is a reactive body-  you can not expect any innovation from these people.
private sector is a pro active body - self interest drives you to keep looking for the edge in the next move. These people have to constantly innovate just to survive, which puts private sector in a positive spiral of change.


It requires incidents of one sort or another to make government to do something. It require sacrifice of the part of public, before this sleeping dragon ever does something about any problem.
Why should people in government be blamed, human nature works on self interest.PERIOD

In government, people do not have incentive to do relatively better work. There is no threat to survival other than you senior suspending you, there is not incentive to keep improving your ability to work. Nobody loves any other person that they will care about them. And these all loving sages that are idealized in Indian society who are projected to do work for pure human love - are to be found only in MYTHS.

If normal public wants to change something in society, they should be given a chance in the private market.

No government program of changing anything in society has ever worked.  I would love to hear counter points about the aforementioned point. Let only the numbers talk, do not propel your bullshit- let the comparison be done between gov. and private sector for the same thing,  and see who could have done in lower price.


People are people, we get influenced by all powerful, all mighty, human loving , ancestral thinking that the king is all loving and he/she will one day solve our problem. May be he/she will definitely solve the problem. But sorry, I do not want control of my life in the hands of some external entity.
These are my problems and I will solve them. If any one is helping me in solving those fine, otherwise FUCK OFF.

I am not against any person, I am against this thinking of depending on someone else for solving your problem. Go get you pichwada out and fucking solve it.


The more you will see reality, the more you will learn about human nature. Its a good way to gain self-knowledge as well. You will learn about your own behavior and reactions when you will interact in society.


TO Be CONT.... ( private sector analysis remaining)

Meaning/satisfaction/happiness

They are not to be found in suits, cars, occasional show-off of wealth or power.

They can only be achieved from your daily activity. What you do on a daily basis, where you spend you time, what kind of people you hang around, how do you spend each and every moment of your life.


Most people have this erroneous notion that life is about spikes of emotions; No its about persistent state of mind and action.

Meaning is more important than occasional high of dopamine that you would derive from external sources- be it power, be it money, be it status, be it sex, be it food, be it any external thing.

I know in my bones that I feel most satisfied  when I have been doing something that has meaning to my existence. I know doing something of that sort has a more lasting impact on my satisfaction threshold.

Its either me who is wrong, cause I see no meaning in these emotionally spiked moments; or most of the people I have ever met have been wrong about what is meaningful in life and what delivers lasting satisfaction and happiness.

I think I am correct. Only time will tell.

I think I had made the right choice when I decide to leave everything to find what makes my life most meaningful.

It was not easy. It took many years to know the fact. I hate to use the word - luck, as I do not believe in it. But I could say in terms of lay men language that I think I am one of the most lucky people in the history of humankind.

I gave time to myself for finding what I want in life and I think I have found an answer for the question.

Now I know in which direction I am heading, so I could be sure and move in that direction in full throttle.

Anyone could do anything

I used to believe that anybody could do anything. But as I grew up, I stopped believing this because of my own stupidity. 

I need to know the truth. I had to respect both aspects before coming to the conclusion. I can tell you with some certainty - Anyone could do anything.

If there is anyone stopping you in the  physical world, he or she should give you the core reasons for doing the same.

believe - you living that reality in your head before it is present in the physical world.

You instigating a particular behavior on the basis of the state of mind that you have accepted to be true before it is the case in the physical world.

I firmly believe that anyone of us could do anything that we want. If you do not believe, let me prove you wrong.

Anyone can do anything

Every thing has an ending but learning and spirit of learning does not- now thats cool!!!

 You should do everything with the best of your ability, simply because it will end. But never worry, because you curiosity will always find something to hang itself.

You will keep learning.

Try to improve the quality of learning itself. Think about it.

You brain does what your heart asks it to do.

You brain does what your heart says.

Your heart makes a choice, may be rational or irrational but your brain will have to act accordingly.

You should believe in your choices and change them only when you have any concrete contrary proof in nature. People are liars and they will try to brainwash you with their bullshit.

You have no choice in certain circumstances, as their is lack of data for you to make conclusive judgement.


Knowing truth is more important because you can monetize you deep understanding of human nature and nature at any point of time.

This time is approaching.

Ujjwal - fuck society, fuck expectation, fuck everyone, exercise your understanding of humankind.

Believe your experiments instead of what anyone says.

Keep Smiling

Nature give itself up to the hard working person

always

Satisfaction is within

Do not compare yourself with anyone on the planet. I never did and would never do.

Everyone cultivates a particular type of nature and particular type of force of nature that is unique to their existence.

Answer to unknow unknown category question is not to be searched in the outside world.

Whatever you have cultivated, nurture that and improve it to the best of your abilities. 

Pick one thing and do it well, may be ... give your life to it.

Cultivate your energy and time, satisfaction is within.

Practice can make you whatever you want

Fuck you ..... who said anything was impossible.

Practice what you  want to be and you will see that yourself becoming that entity.
Journey ends for this question as well.

Practice and find the truth.

Fuck everyone who does not practice  a shit and have all types of ideas about everything under the sun.

Fuck you, keep you mouth shut if you have not practiced.

only practice is real..

most people are living within the permissible range of action that are defined by society. I  vehemently hate this constraint. Go make your own world....

everything else is just pure waste of time. No bullshit attitude is what to be aspired for.

Become an evolutionary  naturalist and observe animals by their action not their words.

People actually have quantum nature. People have dual nature ( may be multiple nature). But actions do not lie.

There is no secret for doing great work. Only practice, working day and night, can make you do anything.

Simply focus on the practice, it is real. It has objective existence. Its is truth.

Practice ujjwal.... Nothing is more powerful than action.

Person should only judge themselves by their actions. PERIOD.

Keep Practicing.

First solve the core business or the intent, before focusing on the technological that you can create.

Your customer hardly give a fuck about your IIT or DCE or Harvard degree. He/she is more interested in hid business.Period


I mean ... always .....always give priority to their business ambitions that they are trying to accomplish using your stuff..instead of this creation of yours.

No matter how many battles you will, your focus should be on the current battle with war in the mind.


Use power law, focus and solve the business problem first... everything else is peripheral from your customers point of view.

No answers are within your head.. so go and fucking talk your customer in the field.
He/she can tell you something in one line that you would otherwise figure out in months.

For learning sake.... talk to your customers, keep learning.



 

for past six hours I have been trying to fix a bug and I have yet been able fix it........aaarrrarhhfhgalggslh..fuck you bug!!!

This mother fucker bug has been fucking my head for past six hours. I could have done a zillion things in these six hours, but I had been incessantly pushing myself to fuck this bug. It has not given up,yet.


I have search all possible blogs and have been to all discussion forums, they were of no use.

I think there is something more fundamental that I have not been focusing my attention to.

I do not know how long I will be sitting with this fucking bug but I am going to kill you and I will eat my mutton burger on your grave.... you fuck.

If you do not give up soon, I promise.... I am going to obliterate your existence.

Let others be frustrated, if you believe you are right ... just keep doing... any change will always piss people.

If you stand for something that is against someone's believe or norm, they get pissed off.

Let them get frustrated, you keep your calm and keep doing what you are doing. When everything is said and done ...... Practice always wins against any theoretical believe.

Do what want to do.

I do not intend to offend others, but if your expectations and believes are in conflict with my practice then you change your expectations and believe. Why should anyone change their practice because someone does not approve of it.

I respect everyone, until and unless my actions are not directly physically harming someone.. I have full freedom to exercise my believes.

I have seen people getting offended by someone not doing what they expect.
I have an answer for you type of people - fuck you, I do not care about your expectation, I care about truth and making thing happen.

You do what you want, don't care about pissing someone - you will always be criticized, no matter what.

Do what you find correct. People have mouth and they do not have self control, so they will say whatever they want to say. Why will your self control affected by someone's lack of self control.

You do what you want to do, you achieve your goals, you die for your dream.

People will be people. Let them be frustrated.

But If someone has a valid point which is true in nature, ujjwal you will have to accept the truth.
You might like the person or not, it is another point but you have to accept the truth.
Nature does not care what anyone believes. If you are wrong accept it , if you are right keep doing it.
Nature runs on truth, society runs on force of will.
Use truth in nature to build your force of will... you will always win.

Keep improving , keep practicing.
Give your life to something more than your human expectation and you will see yourself becoming that concept.

Experiment 1.2
if I choose a concept and then give everything I posses to embody that concept - to manifest all my energy into becoming that concept- I know I will become that concept.


Thank you my teachers.

Fuck you gods, you are nothing but expected certainties. Now I have real certainty with me.



Choose a concept, work for being the concept.

If I am right - I know today that I am going to change the history of mankind in some ways.



choose a concept,give everything you have got to making that concept to reality and you will see yourself becoming that idea or you will die becoming that idea.... either ways you will be happy.


The world seize to exist in this state of mind. Its only you and you goal - that is the truth of being completely focused.

I have learnt this thing through experiment. No book can teach you, you have to walk on the path to understand it, that makes it scary.


Thank you my gurus.

Clarity is more important than verbosity.

 I have decided to give everything I have got to this dream of mine.


I will only post one post every day. I will do it because it will be useful in structuring my thoughts.

I love writing, but I love my dream more. I see it takes a lot of time from my day.

Not a problem - I will do it for learning the flow of thoughts and how to structure it.

But ujjwal programming is a much better way to learn how to structure your thoughts. I think one of the best ways invented by humans.

I should rather spend my time learning to programme and code , than to spend my time writing.

I want to write as I code. I do not care what anyone thinks about my writing.

Clarity is more important than verbosity.

Look for clarity.

whatever does not kill you , makes you stronger - choose your war and live for it.

I have been searching for some external source , for some absolute source of power for achieving your dreams.

I have spent countless hours reading about the brain and how it functions, countless hours discussing about how to improve it. yada yada yada....

But I am  more sure sure then ever, that it is not the brain that has something special. It is the choice of the human being to put his life at stake for something he/she believes in, for something that is more important to their existence.

The greatest genius I ever came to know was Newton. And he  worked his ass off to achieve what he wanted.  For others it might be easy to say that he was born genius-  wrong. He was an ordinary man who chose to work as hard as he could.

He gave his life to something and always kept that thing at the focus of his existence.

Having done all the research that I do not have time to elaborate here, I can happily conclude that there is no physical power to stop you or to instigate you to achieve your dreams.

If there is, then the power is in your choice to put your life at stake for the dream.

If you choose to dedicate your life to something, I can promise you .---- come what may, If you would not desert or betray the goal. You will achieve it or die achieving it. Both are worthy outcomes.


The irony of the whole story is that I knew this thing even before I started searching for the core of the strength in human character. I knew it, I had used it and I practiced it on a daily basis. But I was open to other options and thought I could not have known the secret behind all human endeavors at such a nascent age. I was wrong. I knew it. I had practiced it.

That was the force which allowed me to focus all my attention on one thing and transform me from a student who failed in hindi in class sixth to a student in one of the best colleges of the country.

I am amazed at my own stupidity. I am amazed that I knew this thing all along and was searching for higher and better answer, but there was none to find.

I give an open challenge to anyone who will ever read this, find me a better source of energy to make you do what you want to do and..... I will gladly give everything ,I will have done, to you.

I will start from scratch with your answer, I promise. But I need proof before I accept it. And I will  brutally rip you apart if you would not have done your research properly.


Now lets come back to the core of this post - I choose to give everything I have learnt up till now to this goal of mine. I choose to go as much pain and endurance as necessary for doing what I want.


Your true character comes out when you stand for something you believe in, this is my time to stand on my own words.


This is a bitter sweet victory.

I am glad that I know the secret behind achieving anything that I want in life. But the pain is  that I had to spend almost seven years to get to the point that I always knew.

But if you look at the bright side of the thing - I know the truth, that is the most important thing.

I know the truth, I know the path , I know the goal, I am ready to put my life at stake for this dream.


chahe pocha marna pade , chahe lamborghini mein chalna pade.... main apna sapna pura karunga... I promise ... you.

I was scared in the past that somebody my come with a better answer for that question, but I am sure that there is only one truth in nature. People might have different interpretation of the truth, but truth is only one.

If you have experimented and found out it to be true.... then no matter what ... you have to  believe in it.

I have seen ample evidence and have experienced it myself. I do not need further evidence, it fulfills both necessary and sufficient condition for something to be true.

Thank you everyone who stood against me, thank you for not believing in me, thank you for fighting with me .... as all those experiences made me a better more real human being.

I was an extreme practical person before I went on this journey were I became a philosopher. Now, I am again choosing to be a brutally practical person.

If I do not have experimental evidence to prove it.

It is not real, it is not truth.


People are liars, people use others. In their limited understanding of the
 world and nature, they try to manipulate the truth. I have to be brutally practical with myself, because I am the most gullible person to my own reasoning. If you do not understand something,be truthful about it.The journey from ignorance to knowledge of truth is one way,the first step towards it is to accept that you do not know.

No matter what, be truthful to yourself. Keep your calm and keep working for the choice you have made. Do not be afraid of these souls who do not have any substance at the core of their life and argument.

Do not care for what anyone thinks and says.

Do what you feel is right.

Do what you experimentally found out to be true, rest are all made up stories for children to play.

I am not against people, I am against their ignorance. I have to work for being brutally honest with myself and people around me.

I do not know I will ever amount to be something in the history of mankind, but I am choosing to be truthful to my heart.

To all problems and challenges-
I know you are there, I know you will try to stop me, I know you will drag me down.........but these are my last words - You will only make me stronger.

Come fight me!!

Come I am waiting!!

Come make me stronger.

Put everything you have got to achieve for your dreams, and again, and again for the Dream. Its the only way to live.

I believe in what I have experimented with, I know for sure that one has to give everything one has to achieve your dreams.


You have to put yourself on the line, you have to put everything that you possess to get to your goal.

Judge my life

I will judge my life by the type and quality of the work I end up doing.

Whatever we do, we should do it as perfectly by our standards as possible. Surely we will never live, we will not be able to create that same moment again.

Perfection is a habit, more than an act.

It is your duty to define perfection and then achieve it. Nobody will come and hold your hand and take you to perfection.

The more perfection you demand from yourself , the lesser number of people you will find around yourself who would have done work of similar quality.

The only person who could challenge you is yourself.

The only person who would stop you from achieving perfection is yourself. I have not find any external force to persistently keep you in control. 

Intermittently, things could hold your attention. But, in the long run it is you and your personal idea of perfection that will push you. If you are satisfied with the level of perfection you have attained then your progress will be stopped(experienced).

Every act has to be better quality than the previous one, sign of a learning being.

Path is clear, goal is certainty, walk and walk, bleed and bleed.... you will go beyond what humans think is possible.

Keep Smiling

hans zimmer - its good but its not perfect

many people can find the almost good stuff, but creating the perfect match is the art.

 You do not  want to let down your brothers - hans zimmer ( corroborating mimetic behaviour)

You could actually assemble a team of people who have given their life to what they want to do and live every second for it.


Nobody push me as hard as I push myself  - hans zimmer.

All genius that I know have pushed themselves willingly beyond what they perceived to be their limits.


I am sure, it is intrinsic inspiration of the work/activity in itself that goes much beyond any external
motivation.



I have got one life and I better do it right. -  hans zimmer

The only cartain thing that I have experienced in my life - Death

Uncertainty is the problem, uncertainty is root of fear, uncertainty doesn't let us express ourselves completely.

There is always a nagging voice in your head that says , you are not good enough.

I have found an answer to that nagging but, death.

It is the only thing that is certain.

 I am objectively trying to understand it.

Yes, its true.... in the face of death ... all your fear will be insignificant.

You have nothing to fear in this world, because even before your manufacturing date was given to you- your expiry date was established.


It might be many decades in the future, but you can be absolutely sure about it.

What if you could derive some certainty from this knowledge.

You have nothing to fear, as you are anyhow dead for sure in the long run. So, you might as well try everything you want to before your balloon burst.

Respecting death and deriving certainty in things that we do using death could enhance degree of certainty in anyone's life.

 I ask you, will you be afraid if you are dead. I think - NO

How come this illusion of reality stop you from seeing you are already dead in the long run.

So go get your butts together and create some more certainty.

Nature needs a few people who can create certainty for others to walk behind those tracks and call it life.

Your goal should be to seek and create certainty in everything you touch.

go to the core and see how real things are, if they are not - go find or create certainty somewhere else.


Remember to ask yourself - is it as certain as death, if not lets make it.

Keep Smiling

only one thing at a time

Every cell in my body is asking me to do only one thing at a time. Do it with all your energy , love , vigor, passion, dedication, persistence, determination... but do only one thing.

This is the next stage of controlling your brain.

After 3 months of dedicated meditation, now my brain automatically asking me to focus my attention on only one thing at a time.

Nothing but one thing, and until you are done with it. You can not even think of other things. I believe it the way to improve the quality of your life.

I will never in my life believe in anything without experimental proof

Never..............have paid a huge price. But it has been an important lesson.

Everything has to be engineered

When nothing happens on its own, then how the fuck money will flow in your direction.... without you fucking working to get it on the first place.

I have no shame in accepting that I was one of those guys who would focus on the project or the technology or the product ... but not on how one would make money out of it or how to sustain it.

But today I am disillusioned, every thing has to be meticulously programmed and designed- be it product or how much money we are going to make.

It was the part of the process of being an entrepreneur that I had willingly rejected- but I was wrong.

Money gives you freedom to experiment more, learn quickly, to be yourself - and one has to incorporate it in the entire story of building of the company. Otherwise, you will not have a company.


I am a slow learner -- that is part gift part curse. Depends on how I want to take it. But I have not been persuaded in any wrong direction up till now, this partly because I have delayed understanding of things. So, you get to have a lot of context before you start making the picture. Clarity is really painful process, but once you have it - world is yours.


Keep Smiling

I love what I do... hence I keep doing for as much a time period as I can

this one is going to be lengthy


I never worked in my life.


If you  define making love as working then I have been working a lot. But I have only done things that loved, if I had to do something that I did not  love I would slack in my commitment.


I have been finding for thing that have meaning for my existence, and have found a few as well.

It was hard, the journey to find what you love is painful and filled with obstacles. I think it was pure love on my end that I kept on going in search of that mysterious thing that I could do all my life.

I have found many - but the most important one right now is - pragramming.

People who all have done something more then a mere human being could have achieved, have done only because they were in love with something and they kept on doing it ... even beyond rational expectations of society.

Love ujjjwal ...love more... it has incremental rate of return....

Love is an abstraction I use to express something that fits my model on an intuitive level. I do not completely understand all the parameters for liking something so much that I could give my life for it, hence to simplify it to my brain I just call it love.



But who cares.... if you want to keep on doing

No matter how hard and painful it is .... if you love it...keep doing.. life is too small and you don't know whether you will find again something that you will love.


Let the whole world shut, let the whole world be gone, let all the people disappear, let yourself fly in the outer space, let your my be surfing in the cold trenches of galaxies, let your imagination be at the center of the sun and feel the eternal freedom that every atom in your body deserves.

Once you make that journey and come back you will see this world in a slightly different way.
Or to put it another way, You will never be the same.


I have found that if I choose to put my attention on something I love, I will make it happen even at the cost of my life.


Working hard was the only gift I had given to myself.

I just want to see how would it feel to work 20 hours a day...I would be glad that I did that experiment.

Life would have been boring without experiments--- bring it on!!


Let us define the experiment -
20 hours a day work - 19 hours coding, 1 hour meditation
can not leave your desk
one hour meditation included
Keep Newton at the center.

I am not intelligent - fuck I do not know what it means to be intelligent, but I am sure I am hard working chap

Attention is the key and working your butts off with that attention for as long it takes to reach the predefined goal.Period.

Being truthful to yourself

Now, I think I know what I was missing from my existence. I think now I do understand what Richard feynman, Newton, Steve Jobs were saying when they implied that you will be the most gullible person to your own intelligence.

The easiest person to be fool will be you, so better keep a check on yourself.

Be truthful to yourself and you can do anything.


Know yourself..... be yourself.... be truthful to yourself.

Practice is my religion, attention is my god

Man has many fears in his head, always nagging ,and trying to protect him from something irrational.

But this machinery is out dated.


Using practice you can go beyond what you perceive to be your limits.

Ability to control your attention and deliberately pushing your self using practice will make your a better human being, may be a god. But who cares..... you do it for love.

Joseph campbell - thank you.... for sharing your knowledge with me, thank you for helping me coming out of my own limited perception of history. Each one of us is a god in its own right.

Each one of us has traversed a difficult journey from a simple cell in the womb to the breathing human being to the one who has endured society and has the ability to survive.

Each of us are gods, fuck anyone who denigrates you.

Know yourself , be yourself...... Everything is temporary other than your actions.

Its hard to live this moment for the sake of this moment, but that is the ideal. Every moment is eternity if you are completely attending to it. Ages are nothing if you never focused.

I can not describe in words, the feeling that one of your major journey ends.
You have to go through fire, in order to know exactly how the fire feels.

Practice - one minute is more than eternity of theory

Nature will always judge you on the basis of your practice. The most powerful variable that correlates with your success is practice. There are other  variables, I do agree,but none are stronger then your practice.

The world will give itself up, if you keep on practicing.

There are no secrets reaming in this sphere.

Lets search answer for other questions.

Keep Smiling

End of the quest - attention is the only true asset we can control

After so many years of search about what makes us humans special. What is the reason that this feeble creature has been able to spread so far and achieve so much, even after being just another ape.


I have come to a simple conclusion-
 There are two assets that make us unique -
1) time - uncontrollable asset.
2) ability to put our attention on a desired object at our will - controllable asset.


And there is only one controllable asset - attention...
If I keep my training up, then I will reach the core of this asset. There has not been anything more difficult than this journey, form not knowing about my self to this conclusion that the most important thing in my life are my questions and the only way to answer those questions is to use my attention as I deem fit.

Search complete..... no more discussion on this topic from now onwards.


core of my existence - my personal questions
method to answer them - controlling my attention
nothing else.

structure and interpretation of computer programs .... mind blowing lectures

I  am in great debt to these two professors who are teaching me how think about computer and programming in general.

I am loving it. These guys speak my language, they talk of abstraction, inheritance, multiple levels, black box....wowow... that is amazing.

I think next few days are going to be absolutely mind blowing.

Thank you  my teachers.

Keep Smiling

Typing code - from hating it to absolutely love it.... its is amazing feeling .... once you mastered it

Earlier I hated typing, but now I fucking love it.


I could go on doing this all most all day and everyday.

Coding is a lot of thinking and a lot of documentation for yourself and for the fellow programmers who will join you in your journey.

I hated expressing my view in any shape or form, but now I fucking love it.

Don't lie to me

to be con.....

Energy flow

I have been observing for some days that my energy flow in the body decreases as the day progresses.
I could actually feel in my head.

Problem - I should rephrase the last sentence. My head feel exhausted by the end of the day. It has certain regions that hurt really badly.

Solution - I have observed that laughing and meditation helps restore my energy level.

I have been training myself to put my attention on only relevant things using power law. I came to realize that I use to do it since my childhood. Even though I did not know the term called power law to use it explicitly but I did practice clearing my head of all the redundant thoughts and focusing on only the most relevant ones.

I was really good at it. I can see that power coming back.


Make your game!!

Keep practicing.... It will change the world.

finding the truth is easy... walking the truth is the hard part

I have to practice, I have to walk the truth.

Come What May!!!

I think every thing that we try to understand should be understood in terms of maps.

specially visual maps. I think it must have been very useful to our ancestors for their survival.

This is a very powerful gift that can be train to be a weapon for cutting BS and looking at the core of the matter.  

do something to spread love -- and you will be surprised how much love you will get in return

Today I am choosing to do one thing everyday  to spreads love in nature.


This has to be strictly outside my known human sphere. Not my family, not my friends, not my relatives... nobody that I already know.

I am choosing it for  a selfish reason.

IT MAKES ME FEEL AWESOME!!!!

it has other benefits .... but who cares... I am doing because it healthy for my animal brain.

GIVE LOVE TO GET LOVE..... what an irony.... the more you give the more you get.

Humans have deep memetic behavior tendencies. They instantly adapt to the environment and most of the people do not have a very strong core of believe and knowledge of truth, so they could not help themselves but get influenced by their environment.


Application of this knowledge-
1) You have to give a lot of love in order to increase the chances of getting love in return.

(disclaimer - do not let anything come between you and work)

2) you can change your life and people in your surrounding .... that power.

converting your weakness into your greatest strength.....

Right now, I have been struggling with it.... but my next target is to be the best programmer in the history of the mankind.

I have started working on it.... I do not know how long it will take but I will not change the battle till the time I will achieve it.

This battle is within the list of battles I have set myself to win the war.

Complete focus is on winning this battle.

Nothing else is more important ...nothing else should be worth my time or attention and energy.

Ujjwal focus you energy.... fucus your attention.... focus your love... this is the only thing.

Let the journey be as tough as it can be.

I am loving it.

today - javascript, ajax, jquery

I need to practice these all.

I want to surprise my friends on 30th evening.

I want to blow their mind with the shear awesomeness of the product that me and kala are building.

It is going to be a lot of work and I want to show the best I can do.

Now would be a good time to reach for perfection.

Even though most of the things I do in life if for the simple reason that I consider them to be worthy of my time. But today I want to do something for my friends and that will be exciting.

I think we will all enjoy the feeling us creating something awesome.

I do not why I am feeling all awesome... and I am high....

If have observed that if you set goals that are meaningful to your existence, then your brain suddenly lit up.

I love all my friends and I want to spend quality time with them while showing the best of what we can achieve.

Suddenly my brain is on steroids and I can not control my excitement....


YUUPOYOUYOOIYHOHOHOHOHOHH!!!!

It will be fun... keep practicing

Once you have climed mount everest

You want to find another mount everest.

But world has only a limited number of Mount Everest.

Keep practicing

you can use your brain to find the path , but you do need your heart to walk the path

the real difficulty is in syncing your heart with the path you have chosen for yourself.


Focus your attention on practice.
It is the only thing that is real.


Keep Smiling

control your attention - train yourself and you can do anything

From now onwards I am completely going to focus on coding. I fucking love it. It had been my dream ever since I was small.

I do not know what is the reason.

I have some explanation for me loving programming on the intuitive level, but I don't have an explicit answer.

May be it is because, I love to do small tests and experiment while I am working on anything and this is something that allows you to test, instantaneously.

Its like having the worlds biggest experimental set at your tips.

I am trying visualize me coding day and night, I think this helps in the long run.

I could start doing by small things everyday, and eventually gain pace where I could deliver code quickly.

I did not know that I would love programming so much.


It had been an experiment, and I am really proud that I did that.

I am planning to give my foreseeable future for improving my skills and build something that is valuable all of us.

This is cool.... I am loving ...I am putting this thing on my subconscious .... to grow and become a part of my existence.


There are only two activities that I dearly love. Meditation and programming.

Lets run!!

keep smiling










 

perceived barriers

Whatever they are, we just need to overcome them only once. The only way to do it, is to put yourself in a situation where you are deliberately pushing yourself to do the experiment.

This is one of the fundamental techniques to improve your self control.

change opinion

You can change other people's opinion....  there is a science to it.

I have to do more experiments.

monopoly - peter thiel

Thank you....

Imagination and reality

In one of the early books  that I had read on psychology, the author had spent a great deal of time explaining that there is hardly any difference between you visualizing aka imagining stuff and you actually doing it in the real world.

From your brain's perspective you are using same neurons in both cases.

To give a concrete example- if you are thinking about drinking a hot coffee, in a white cup, with your right hand, in a beautiful restaurant, with amazing friends........ and when you will actually do this in physical world - there is no way for your brain to separate between the two cases.

That is how we are wired.

This is amazing..... I will discuss about its consequences.
(I would need some more data from psychology department to corroborate what I am saying)

Keep Practicing

you should be proud when other people start calling you crazy....

it generally means that you have found something that is beyond the understanding ability of most of the people which could be extrapolated to you being a black swan.

The only problem remaining is to make it meaningful .... even though people does not understand something when you say in your innate vocabulary, but people do understand the language of money.

If I could use those things that I have learnt to build something that makes  ass-loads of money..... then these same people will start calling you genius.

I am neither.... I am just a person trying to achieve his dreams.

Triumph and disaster- both are imposter, but it is hard for most people to accept and keep improving.


Kumar Ujjwal

Now is the time to use everything you have got and prove it to yourself that you have learnt something in these past eight years

I am eccentric, but I love to be the person I am.

The knowledge I possess have to be test to know the reality as I do not like to live in illusion of knowing something when its not the case.

I will not be shy to accept that I was wrong so that I could get up start learning again.

I have to prove it to myself that my journey has been for knowledge and I have made progress.

If the test leads to monetary outcome then be it.

I have to know the truth...... let me practice what I preach... let me bleed .... let me be me....

Keep Smiling

Incremental rate of return and decremental rate of return

If you are not investing your time and attention on things/activities that have incremental rate of return then by definition you are investing your time in things that have decremental rate of return.

Understanding this in your bones is necessary to keep your focus tuned.
We humans have very little control over our attention and energy. The only way I have found is to keep asking myself this simple question.

If the answer is not in the first category, then I know I need to change something. I know that I am deliberately putting myself into misery.

I know I would wake up some day and shake everything from there core in order to shift everything I have got to focus on the things/activities that I consider have incremental rate of return.

This is difficult stuff.. but practice will automate my response.


Keep Asking yourself... and be brutally honest about it....

 are you doing something that will have incremental rate of return?

.... no matter how small the rate of return is.
`Over period it will always be compounded to a very big number.... beyond your wildest imagination.



Everything is fair in LOVE and WAR.

BUSINESS IS LOVE AND WAR -BOTH.

Don't ever be afraid of big guys, of people with deep pockets .... because they will not remain big or their pockets will not remain deep if they are not focused on things that have incremental rate of return.

If you can push yourself to the limit of sanity in order to search and execute things that have incremental rate of return..... you will achieve your dreams.

Be Brutally honest about it..... there are no consolation prizes in life.

Keep Looking for incremental rate of return activities.

I think world will be a better place if all humans could understand and act upon the aforementioned fact.

Of all the experiments I love two the most

Currently, I have only two things in my mind-

1)Practice meditation - creating neurons
2) Practice coding - destroying neurons

Meditation bring sanity back to my existence.

Coding is the method I am using to see my dream come true. It require a lot of focus and consistent hours of neuron firing.

I am loving both... I just want to keep practicing...

the most efficient way of acquirin knowledge and applying knowledge is - Practice

I am hundred percent sure - practice is the most quickest way to know the truth.

living by the truth or the harvard degree

Which one will you choose - the truth or the social proof

I would always and always choose truth. I have a selfish reason and an intellectual reason to choose the truth.

Selfish - no matter what truth always wins in the end.... I like to win.
Intellectual - There is always something nagging in your head if you do not accept intellectually honest answer. You slowly loose your ability to separate BS and real meat.


Social proof might allow you to win a few battles, but I am sure the war is won by truth... always.Period.

Lets us see who will win the war.

Kumar Ujjwal

If I find deep meaning in what I am doing... I love it and could potentially do all my life

Meaning is directly related to my personal quest and aspirations in life.

It does not matter what anyone thinks of the activity I am doing, the only person whose opinion is important in this case is ....... ME.

I am loving this perseverance to achieve this dream of mine to build something that I and many other will use on a daily basis.

I will seduce these people in using this tool to simplify there life and make them use it by its shear awesomeness

It awesome to be awesome!!!!

relax and let me do the hard work... I was born for it..... huuraaaaaah

I am loving it I can see myself cruising these software development and quality upliftment processes at the speed of light.

The road is set .... lets run... ujjwal

Found my next hero - Joseph juran

I have been building the medical platform for some days, but I was not happy with the quality of the work that I was producing.

My brain had intuitively started pushing away from actual coding and wanted me to find a solution to this problem. I, in my desperation, started looking for solution to improving quality.

Guess what, I did not type "quality on google"; rather started watching videos of steve jobs. I knew that his passion for high quality must have it origin in the external world. No one is born with anything, you use mimickery to learn from society.

I was searching for hint in his talks, suddenly I found a video that I has not seen. It was titled "steve jobs on joseph juran and quality", my bulb just got lit.
First question - who the hell is joseph juran.

Watched that video and a few more, got convinced that he was the guy I was searching for, downloaded his book, started reading. got more convinced he was the one I was looking for.

Now the road to quality is set... I just have to begin the practice.

Thank you steve and joseph.............

we all show mimetic behavior ...... the choice is in which behavior we choose to mimick.

Keep Smiling


Quality planning
quality control
quality improvement

culture is the most important thing to me

Its all about people.... its all about what kind of people you surround yourself with.


Nobody has all the answers, nobody can be all powerful and all knowing.

But the culture can help nurture environment where failure is tolerated, where people respect for trying out things and making a difference.

I know its importance because I have seen its affect on me and people around me.

Me and my friends use to play basket ball for  hours everyday.

We would make mistake and fall, but nobody would even keep that in their mind they will just pick the person up and let the game go on. The person will do his or her analysis about the necessity for improvement, but he/she would not be looked down by anyone for trying and failing.

But real life is not like that, here when people fail then others will simply dissociate themselves from that entity.

I have a problem with this culture, when person has fallen he/she needs most care and upliftment.

Indian culture is not like that, and it sucks for that reason.

People are incentivised for being fake people with fake smile and hollow existence with charming faces and dying breathe , feeling themselves to be the curse of the planet.

But I have a solution for this problem, because I know people have deep mimetic behavior showing tendencies I could stick to what I know to be truth in nature. By doing that people will have some example to share their true self.

I will be able to create a culture which would be as close to meritocracy as one can go.

I could actually begin a cultural revolution, I have to walk the talk and let the creativity and perseverance win.

I frankly do not care about what others do, I want to be  in such a culture and I want to surround myself with such people hence I will create such a culture.

Fuck the World.


Keep Smiling .... Keep improving

Self control - fight back

No matter who you are
whatever you do
I have a request for you
Do not come in our way.


Self control leads to fight-back tendencies.

If I conclude that some endeavour of mine is meaningful to my existence, I can promise you I will fight-back as many number of times necessary in order to win.


Then winning is not just for the triumph it brings, on the contrary it will become personal.

The more you would fight with me, the more the delayed ..... the more powerful and resilient I would become.

I did not know that in my childhood it was self control that use to manifest itself as fight-back tendencies.

But having being on the soul searching journey I know it now.

there is only one condition in which I will not begin the journey, if I do not deem it to be worthy of my time or my quest.



Truth -

Haath ki lakeero par itna aitbaar na kijiye, naseeb unka bhi hota hai, jinke haath nahi hote.

Fight back

What if I train my mind for failure, what if I expect the most likely outcome of anything that you do to be failure.

But there is one more surety, that is I will fight back until I reach the preconceived success.

I remember my basket ball days, I would practice for hundred of hour to perfect one stance.

All the while I was failing again and again in my head. I had prepared myself internally to go through those many failure in order to see the outcome I wanted to see.

Mastery is the goal

Don't ever do much.... but whatever you do.... just make sure that you are the master in it.

learn using mastery as the target...not on batch system that our education system wants us to believe.

There is no way that your brain was designed for batch mode learning.... But mastering survival in the savana was surely the necessity.

Nolan bushnell - one of my heros

From different angles I am getting the same message that it is not about the idea.

It is about DOING, It is about the PRACTICE.


Everyone and his dog has an idea..........but only a few mother fuckers ever get courage to act on those ideas.


Fuck Ideas... from now onwards .... focus on the person who is executing it.

Coz you know in your brain that the idea is going to evolve, may be morph into completely different thing... who the fuck cares!!!

Till the time you know you are in a the hands of a good executioner, a person with the marvelous habit of PRACTICING, EXPERIMENTING, DOING and MAKING THINGS HAPPEN.

Being such a person and finding such people is the most important goal of my life.

It is more of an art than science...... it is difficult and I would enjoy every minute of pursuing such a cause. By the end of the journey,if I would become such high standard executioners. I would think that I would have achieved the next goal that I have set.

Let me give a concrete shape to my quest-

perfection in execution is the ideal.
getting closer to it is the goal.
path is to keep improving and testing your current status of execution
Set your own benchmarks and keep a track of how far short you have landed on every try
but relentless about reaching the perfection
there is no force in nature to stop you from achieving that goal.. other than yourself

improvement needed.... but the piece is self sufficient

Promise - a force I never understood

How can some casual words mean so much to someone that they would be ready to give there life for those collection of words.

I saw its importance in my life as well.

I do see people giving everything they have- financially, emotionally, psychologically, physically---

to things that would not make sense to any external entity.

I would love to get scientific answers from our psychology department.

Why do we give such importance to some promises and not to others.

Importance given to any  set of promises follow power law.

Some promises would be so important to your existence that you would gladly give your life for them  and some promises would never cross your mind again.

If it is some force that we can utilize to achieve things that are perceived to be beyond our abilities then it is worth pursuing this question.

I will experiment on this and would try to find the core of the question.


Promise..... an invisible force to engulf your existence to some abstract concept.

WOW.... that was heavy.


Keep Smiling

Some models

1) self control
2) stream of thought
3) Power law
4) neurons test
5) mimetic behaviour
6) practice 


Sooner or later I will elaborate these.

Two fundamental questions

1) Do you have self control?
2) What do you use it for?

Answers-

1) YES
2) acquire knowledge and apply knowledge


What are your answers- ( these are subjective questions... therefor I do not consider any answer to be correct or incorrect)


But I ask these questions everyday and I need to remind myself, the core reasons of doing things I want to do.

These questions are agnostic to your knowledge, sex, societal status, caste , creed, religion, health,stage of life. To me these are everlasting questions. If you could honestly answer these for yourself, then I think you know what you are doing in life.
If you are not able to answer these questions, then welcome to the journey called life.

But the most dangerous stand would be, you  portraying that you do possess the answer when in reality you do not. Its a huge dis-service to your own existence.

I can promise you, If you truthfully try to answer these questions then you will see yourself changing and getting to the core of your existence.


Over these years I have build certain models to understand reality, I would be glad to share all those models to everyone.

I have not been able to fully apply these models in my life but the struggle is on and I will not stop till the very last breathe.

Testing becomes the most important thing to gain confidence

If I want to be sure of anything, I have to test it to the limit of its existence.

If you do not test , you do not know its behaviour ... be it machine ... be it mammal.

Gamify Everything

There has to be a better way.

Our Brain loves games....
 

I think life is nothing but a collection of a long list of games:
1) go to school
2) do shitty jobs
3) fuck a few
4) get exhausted
5) fuck again
6) do shitty jobs
7) have children
8) ask them to repeat the same mistakes that you committed ....

There has to be a better way.

the fuckup threshold

I love doing difficult things, I mean things that I could not have done in the past and activities that I consider to be beyond my current capabilities.


There is a fundamental reason behind my choice.

Ever since I was small, I have been doing small experiments on myself and society.
Every time I did something challenging, my challenge threshold increased even further.

The more difficult things I was doing, the more difficult things I wanted to do.

Its like a spiral- your brain will trigger you to search for such activities in which you will get to increase this threshold.

It is almost automatic, and now I gravitate towards things that shake the hell out of my existence.

It is one of the greatest gift of nature.

Over period things that you use to consider difficult will give up and you will start ruling them, there is no feeling that can come close to this feeling of accomplishment and getting beyond your perceived limitations.


Everyday, you get to improve and your love affair with life gets even more interesting.


Keep Smiling

What will be the only thing that you will remain with you - Habits

When everything is said and done.

When the journey of your life is about to finish.

You might have been able to live your dreams or you might not have been able to make them into reality.


You might have tasted this bitter sweet pain called love or not.

You might have done the best you could have done or not.

But I ask what would truly be yours and will vanish with your existence.

Habits that you would have build in those long years.

I remember Warren Buffet saying something similar to a passing class of MBA's, that don't worry about your marks or your IQ. In the journey called LIFE,your habits will have much more to say in comparison to your IQ.


Back then it did not make much  sense to me.

But then most successful people say some shitty things that normal people like me have a hard time to grasp.


I think today I could say that it makes perfect sense to me.

As I have been getting more information and have generated different perspective, over the years.
I could see how small were the battles of academia.

How little was expected out of us and we in our nativity would allow ourselves to be judged by someone else, who would make the rules of the game and would force us to run for the top position.

Guess what, you could be the best in winning those small battles but if you have not built everlasting habits from those experiences; I can assure , sooner or later you would regret wastage of your time and money.


This is my request to all students and people in general-
 look for the deeper meaning behind your activities ....
ask why are you doing it and what are the core issues you are trying to address by doing such activity
Ask why the game is designed the way it is
I can assure you, most people have no idea about the bigger picture.... they are there because someone asked them to be... as most others.

Most people don't know what they want from life.

Don't be most people... be yourself... be brutally honest.... keep looking for the core reason for your existence.



I have a simple mission....
if every day I would sleep having slightly improved my habits... I would be a happier person.


I know whatever we put attention to .... it grows.... let me be very careful about my habits.


Keep Improving.
















 

If you had been given a chance to write the history of the planet...

 What would you want it to be?


What if someone would take this idea of creating a world from scratch...?

what if someone decide that the world need more openness and respect for one another... and strive to build such a world?

Kid you not, it is hell of a big opportunity.

But why not?

Why not try to equalize opportunities.... why not let the world go towards meritocracy?

why not give blood, sweat and tears to build a  world of your dreams ?

Why not strive to stand for something greater than yourself?

Why not aim so high .... that definition of impossibility is rewritten?

I do not know how one would go about doing it, but surely it is doable.

Every time you get tired, every time you get cheated, every time you get exhausted, every time you get drained.... remember this moment will only comes once in the history of the planet... make the most of it.

Practice till you attain perfection in your execution.

Nobody can teach anyone to aspire for excellence, it is an endeavor taken on your own.

As I say, Greatness is chosen... always.

Every minute you are writing the history of the world with your actions, you can not look for answer in the outer world.  Its too chaotic to make sense. Go with your own experiments and experiences ... they will never betray you.

No matter what ... just keep practicing.... keep moving forward... keep doing what your heart says...people may come ..people may go.

Your actions are permanent....

You are ephemeral, but not what you stand for.

Keep digging deeper, keep practicing.... its the only key.

All my heroes have taught me this... which is contrary to what public has been telling me.

That you can work your way towards your dream, that you can change the history of the world .... may be in some small way or may be in some big way... but surely you do.

And you should never forget that..... keep working and breathing for your dreams.

They are more important than any harvard degree or external prestige bestowed by society.

What a beautiful way to deflate BS from society, just ask why not?
let people defend the fundamental of anything in existence. You get to see the core reason of why something is the way it is and not otherwise.


People are generally polite and in politeness they hesitate to tell the truth. Even in the most obvious cases of shitty things,  people will apprehend their true intentions. I think that is a disservice to both individuals. Tell the truth, the person might not like it; but he will always respect you for your strength of character for not being a sycophant.


I heard someone saying that-

the powerful should have equally powerful moral character.

Not sure what exactly it means but on an abstract level I can understand what it is trying to mean.


If at all I have learnt anything in life, if at all I have any knowledge of truth.. I am going to put at stake everything I possess for the next goal.

For seven years, bloody seven years, I was in hibernation; intentionally.

Now would be a good time to apply whatever I have learnt in those seven years. Now would be the to wake up and smell the coffee.

Now or never

I have build a lot of context, some true some abstractions. But now everything is to be deliberately put at stake, knowing that odds of success are low... but entrepreneurship is not a logical choice for a short life that we live, even then I have chosen it. I love creating stuff, learning new things, building and sharing my knowledge.

Who knows when will the sweet bell of success arrives, but who cares. You do it for the journey, for the chance to make something amazing that will have its own existence over and above yours.

Just imaging that stuff is so energizing, now what would it be to actually make some thing that you and other people will use on a daily basis.

Long before I started thinking about entrepreneurship, I had read something written by TESLA.... he had said the joy of creating something from nothing exceeds that of food, materialistic toys, sex... etc.
I know in my bones that he was correct.

Thank you Tesla.

Now its my turn to build something .... to change the world in my own small way.

Keep Smiling




































 

Peter theil

Courage is in far short of supply than genius.


WOOWWWW.... I am in love...he is bloody right.

No matter what.... why not

why not...

Now I understand why people are not able to execute their dreams

Fear


Even if we want to do something, our brain stops us from trying. I think the reason behind this phenomenon is unfamiliarity of the neurons with the activity.

Then it becomes our duty to tell ourselves, there is nothing to be afraid of ... keep practicing and you will rule this activity.


The biggest test is in the beginning of the activity, as every interaction with the activity will lower our fear .... as it would be something that our brain would become familiar with.

Over time, there is even this possibility that we become really good at it.. might even start enjoying the challenge.

We just need to control ourselves in those preliminary exposure moments.

If You keep coming back .... then I can assure you ... you will become fearless.

You will become familiar and your neurons will demand for more.


Keep Smiling

what a beautiful analogy - neurons as soldiers

lets think over it and elaborate it.

Think of your neurons as soldier... keep that in your head and you will always be at the peak of your performance.

A logical argument in support of Practice

Of all the variables in life, I think the only one that is in my perfect control is what do I Practice.

Everything is abstraction other that cold hearted practice.

Your neurons does what you have asked them to practice. They are just small soldiers if you do not train them well by practicing hard and being brutally honest.

They will not be able to win battles for you.

Train them, use practice.

They will do the rest for you - that too for free.


Keep Smiling

Practice ... practice.... practice

Practice ... practice.... practice

whats your super power - ability to focus my attention on the things I want to achieve

 I asked myself why was I not able to put my self to code. Given that, I love code.

WHY WHY WHY WHY......

When I got relaxed, something pop in my head because I was doing it without using my super power.

I had a question, what made humans special. I had been searching for this question.

I did not find any universal answer.

The subjective answer that I did find was - I have this ability to focus my attention on something for a very long time, I can persist with something that I was for a considerable period of time.

In comparison to people I see around me, other than that there is not a single shit that is different about me.

If I use power law on everything  I do considering I have this super power, It becomes a dangerous combination.

The world does not know this, but one day you will.

I just wanted to keep this for the record.

Keep acquiring knowledge and applying knowledge.

coding is meditation

meditation is the best activity I have ever done.

Reverse logic... I love coding



Keep Meditating

the more I am practicing power law ... the more realxed I am becoming

At any point of time, there are multiple things that we are supposed to do.

Our brain is not good at prioritizing things....

and mostly out of those hundreds of things only a few are really worth doing... rest of the work is either total BS or creation of our mental connections.

Anyhow you will only be able to execute only a handful of things in a day, as you have only 24 hours..... NO MATTER WHAT.

If we could somehow know what those most important activities are , it would greatly improve meaning in our life.

We would not have to wander, we could just do a few things but whatever we would do... it would be best that humanity has ever seen.

That is my intention, that is what I am aiming for.

To improve the quality of my execution that will be beyond anything humanity has ever seen.

I have to tell you it is damn hard..... but that is what I want to do.


That is what I will give my life for.

One act of that standard of quality will be better that all acts below that standard.

One such act will be sufficient to give meaning to my existence.

Lets keep searching and keep improving our execution.


Keep Smiling

Businesses that are not online....... they would all die.... sooner or later

if you want to live an independent life.... if you want to keep your freedom in the 21st century, then you have to attach yourself with some activity which is related to programming.

I can very easily predict that almost everything in the world will be effected by programming... I mean everything.


Its scary, but simultaneously a huge opportunity to create an new more open world. A world where there will be more equality in opportunity. A world where hard work would have a better chance to make difference.


Guess what you can contribute in building such a world. Yes, critics will have there apprehension. They always have, its our duty to keep proving them wrong. To keep moving the human race forward beyond the wildest dreams of these so called critics.... and thats hard.... but who cares ..... your heart says to do it then....

 Just fucking do it.


Just fucking do it

Nobody knows the truth and whoever says that they do know the truth are a bunch of mother fucking liars.

Always ask for evidence and then you will see the story will unfold in multiple directions ....accept them providing any concrete evidence to make up our mind.


Hence, beware of experts.


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wherever you put attention...... it grows

No matter how shitty situation ..... whatever you will focus up on, it will grow.

Controlling your attention is the most important power that a human being possess.

You put your complete attention on it .... be sure it will grow... it will come to fruition.

I think it is related to neural plasticity.


To be con.

It is very rare to find people who have dreams. Its rarer to find people who have tried to live their dreams. Its extremely rare to find people who have achieved their dreams.


I find myself in that category of people who have been able to work on their dreams.

I fundamentally believe that everyone can do anything.

Genius is chosen.

You can work you way towards being a genius.

1% inspiration , 99% perspiration - absolutely correct.

Intellectual power is so  highly over rated.

Its your intrinsic drive to achieve your dream  that is the key to live your dreams.

If you are intrinsically driven to achieve it, then you would put at stake everything in life in order to achieve your dreams.


I want to write a poem- ( need a lot of improvement)

DREAMS
_______________________________________

My struggle is my victory
my journey is my love

victory is an event ... journey is the reward


to stand and not accept it
to be mocked and be thrashed

keep standing and willing accept the lonely journey


to remember the core, to keep digging for more
to fail a million , but never be defeated


you know your efforts are short, will always be



You do it for the love, till the day your heart stops
yes you will be scared, it will not make sense for a long period


but who was doing for victory anyway, keep digging... keep bleeding


for my child ..... you will know whats love.

I feel so stupid... that after 2 and a half years I have finally realised how important EXECUTION IS!!!

But truth be told... I accept it took me two and a half year of my life to finally nail it down to this one thing that looks obvious now.


My complete focus in on execution quality from today onwards.

I am not going to let anything come in between me and perfection in execution... at any cost.

FOCUS ON EXECUTION..... Everything else will take care of itself.

I think to improve the execution quality I have to use power law on everything I do

Execution toward perfection need me to execute everything I do with same quality.

You can not be sloppy at some things and marvelous at others. You can choose which all activity to focus on, but the quality of those activities have to be in line with your journey towards perfection in execution.

Execution is not something that you do separately, breathing execution, writing is execution, loving is execution... typing is execution, programming is execution, meeting people is execution,... you can not separate anything that you do from execution. Hell!!!! thinking is execution.


You have to police yourself on multiple levels to finally achieve that level of perfection in execution.

What you can choose is which activities to execute.
What number of activities to execute.
with whom to execute
But what you should never ever ever....ever do is to do a thing without thinking about its execution quality.....Make it a habit...then things will happen on its own.

Lets begin with a totally unrelated thing from the point of entrepreneurship.

I believe small things do matter... therefore I want to start by focusing my breathing habit.
I am going to force myself into breathing in a particular way.



Everything is Execution....look for power law in everything and keep improving ... there is no fucking secret.

Keep Smiling

Today I am biting the bullet and accepting that execution the only thing that matters

I can come up with the best Idea the world would ever see, but that has zero value.

I have to execute it in such a way that it goes to its logical conclusion. THE EPIC END.


Think of it this way, you want to make a movie and your idea is the story of the movie.

Now you have to execute it so that you give an epic conclusion.

You can either make inception ... an awesomely stupid story ...with multiple abstraction levels.... but executed spectacularly well that it will be remembered for a new decades....OR

you could make Alexander the great..... An epic story with the best warrior ever to walk the planet... but executed so much shit... that it burns my soul.



I just want to say that I have been hit by this truth of nature... that execution is the most important thing for me.

The beauty of learning execution is that over period you are going to improve and could refine your skills of execution toward perfection.

Ideas may come and go.... execution will be everlasting....  This is worth my time

Keep improving your execution..

Can I keep doing difficult things all my life - YES

I love doing difficult things and beating the hell out of them. I can pump up the amplitude of difficulty and keep moving no matter what.

Until one day the difficulty of the problem will be so high that it will consume my physical existence.

Awesome!!!

Phil libin thank you-

I was discussing about the problem I was facing that coding seems easy for me right and hence boring for my brain.
I am not able to do this thing because my brain is saying it is easy.... had a log discussion with my friend ... that was somewhat convincing and I was getting on track slowly.

But then I asked which web company I really admire and what are the companies I really admire and would like to learn from.... unanimously it was EVERNOTE.

I have been using evernote for quite some time, I think these people have built something special something very close to my idea of perfection.

I wanted to learn from these guys.... so I search for phil libin as I knew that he was the CEO.

I found Ycombintor speech in which he said ...Exactly what I need to hear.....BUILDING THE PRODUCT and GETTING INVESTMENT WAS ONE OF THE MOST EASIEST THINGS IN THE JOURNEY OF THE STARTUP..... THE ROAD ONLY GETS TOUGHER FROM HERE.....

Man he nailed it.... it was sufficient to get excited again that a lot of learning is remaining and I will get to solve a lot many difficult problems.

Thank you bro ... One day I will personally thank you....


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Greatest asset we possess- ability to direct our attention

I have literally seen everything in my surrounding vapourize when I have put my attention on something that I want.
I think one of the greatest asset we human possess is to direct our attention to something and give every thing we have got to that one entity or activity that we are so dearly focused up on.

Achieving that state is hard. Some people call it a state of flow. I do not totally agree to that interpretation of the phenomenon.
To me it is an experience in which nothing else remains in the universe- You might be blowing trumpet in my ears and I will not be disturbed at all because the thing I have chosen to focus on has consumed all my attentional bandwidth.

OHHHHH!

It is a good model to understand what I am trying to say.

I had read somewhere that we humans could only hold a few pieces of information in our head - around seven independent pieces of information.

Now, lets assume it to be true for the moment.

That means if these seven thing are seven metaphorical seats in my head that could be utilized by any piece of information. Some seats will be automatically filled by our environment and some seats will be in our control.

Now, becoming more focused simply means we being able to deliberately fill these seats instead of these seats getting filled on their own because of any other reason.

If and only if we could practice and make a habit to deliberately fill theses seats then over period of prolonged practice we would become better in putting our attention to things and activities we want to focus.

There is no secret of any kind- any person who is willing to test this could experiment and let me know the outcome. I would urge you to experiment for at least six months for half an hour every day.

If this the case- then lets make a few predictions.
1) over period external things will not affect you until you want them to affect- basically neurons in your frontal lobe will increase. Specifically in the region responsible for your self control, as all the while you have been training your brain to control your attention and focus on where you want it to be.

2) You will become emotionally strong- as it a corollary to the first one. Your brain will not easily be affected by emotions as you will get to choose whether to get affected by surrounding environmental emotional state or not, instead of being a victim of the mimetic behavior of human.

3) Your will power will be off the chart.

4) Better at choosing activities with delayed gratification.

Back to attention- I am thankful to meditation for helping me getting better at focusing my mental energy.

It has been one of the most important gifts of my life that I have received and I will always be in debt to my martial arts teacher who taught me this magnificent art.

I hope science would perform more experiments on mindfullness and meditation so that I get to learn more and improve my experience.

The Problem-

It is practically impossible to sustain that state of attention. I have been trying to maintain it but I have been failing for quite some time.

But I have not given up, I know how important it is to be absolutely hyperfocused on what you are trying to do. Hence,I will keep practicing till the last breathe of my existence. I do not know how long it will take ,I do not know it will ever happen, I do not know that I will ever be able to achieve the level of control..... But I will keep practicing.

Even one experience of that state of mind is sufficient for you to crave for it. I have had multiple experiences ..... Lets see how far I can take it.


Keep Smiling

Only experiment can make you realize the truth

Your brain can put you states where it could make you believe things that are not true.

Such as,
1)you believing something is true when actually it would be not.
2) you believing that you understand something when actually you have no idea what you are talking about.
3) you believing that you are making progress when actually you have not been tracking your progress and have no idea how far you have come or how far you have to go before you achieve that goal.

This is one of the most bizarre experience of my life.

I have in my head one the most amazing machine man has ever seen , but one has to make external measure and parameter to keep in it in check.

I do not know how to explain that situation when humans believe in something when actually it is not the case. I believe it must have some evolutionary benefit in doing so.

In the prehistoric times, even though we would have been wandering in the open jungle........Believing that we were safe would have been very important for our survival .

I do not know how... about why do we believe in things without evidence of any kind. The phenomenon is very real, and if you do not keep a check then you brain could lead you in directions that you never anticipated.

Example-

I do not consider myself a lazy person, but from a few days I have not been able to code. Not because I do not want to but I have been getting these signals from my brain that coding is too easy for you to spend your valuable time. But I know if I would not code, there is no way  that this thing could be done and it is vital for our company to make progress. Coding might actually be easy for my brain, but the fact does not change that no matter how easy or difficult it is if I would not do it then  there is no chance of it getting done.

Now the problem is - I knew this from the very first moment of the beginning of my procastination.
Apparently, my had to be experimentally shown that it was the case. As it is the fourth day now without me making any progress in terms of code. Today in the morning when I experimentally realized the fact then suddenly I have been switched in this mode where I can not think of anything but - CODE.

I am trying to draw conclusions from this experiment-
I have to experimentally and externally show to my brain or to any one who wants to know the truth because no amount of reason or theory could be conclusive to settle the vagueness in our brain.

Brutal/blunt/unbiased experimental evidence which could be replicated anywhere could only be the way our brain can find the truth.

I think intuitively everyone knows this thing.

But now I have brought it on the explicit plane- for me- to believe in anything that my brain wants me to believe or someone else wants met to believe I have to be given evidence.

I have to be brutally honest with myself, because thats the  only way to reach the core the problem and find the truth.


RF said- you are the most gullible person to your own reasoning, hence you have to be very careful in not believing everything that your brain wants you to believe- you should always and I mean always ask for evidence.

Finally- Don't be too harsh on yourself for being wrong sometimes.

You are human and no matter what you will make mistakes. But never stop improving, never give up your quest. Just move from failures to failure till the time you reach the core and understand the truth.

Life is not binary when when it come to improvement of your existence- it is a gradient, just pick yourself up and keep moving in the direction you want your life to go.


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