I love what I do... hence I keep doing for as much a time period as I can

this one is going to be lengthy


I never worked in my life.


If you  define making love as working then I have been working a lot. But I have only done things that loved, if I had to do something that I did not  love I would slack in my commitment.


I have been finding for thing that have meaning for my existence, and have found a few as well.

It was hard, the journey to find what you love is painful and filled with obstacles. I think it was pure love on my end that I kept on going in search of that mysterious thing that I could do all my life.

I have found many - but the most important one right now is - pragramming.

People who all have done something more then a mere human being could have achieved, have done only because they were in love with something and they kept on doing it ... even beyond rational expectations of society.

Love ujjjwal ...love more... it has incremental rate of return....

Love is an abstraction I use to express something that fits my model on an intuitive level. I do not completely understand all the parameters for liking something so much that I could give my life for it, hence to simplify it to my brain I just call it love.



But who cares.... if you want to keep on doing

No matter how hard and painful it is .... if you love it...keep doing.. life is too small and you don't know whether you will find again something that you will love.


Let the whole world shut, let the whole world be gone, let all the people disappear, let yourself fly in the outer space, let your my be surfing in the cold trenches of galaxies, let your imagination be at the center of the sun and feel the eternal freedom that every atom in your body deserves.

Once you make that journey and come back you will see this world in a slightly different way.
Or to put it another way, You will never be the same.


I have found that if I choose to put my attention on something I love, I will make it happen even at the cost of my life.


Working hard was the only gift I had given to myself.

I just want to see how would it feel to work 20 hours a day...I would be glad that I did that experiment.

Life would have been boring without experiments--- bring it on!!


Let us define the experiment -
20 hours a day work - 19 hours coding, 1 hour meditation
can not leave your desk
one hour meditation included
Keep Newton at the center.

I am not intelligent - fuck I do not know what it means to be intelligent, but I am sure I am hard working chap

Attention is the key and working your butts off with that attention for as long it takes to reach the predefined goal.Period.

Being truthful to yourself

Now, I think I know what I was missing from my existence. I think now I do understand what Richard feynman, Newton, Steve Jobs were saying when they implied that you will be the most gullible person to your own intelligence.

The easiest person to be fool will be you, so better keep a check on yourself.

Be truthful to yourself and you can do anything.


Know yourself..... be yourself.... be truthful to yourself.

Practice is my religion, attention is my god

Man has many fears in his head, always nagging ,and trying to protect him from something irrational.

But this machinery is out dated.


Using practice you can go beyond what you perceive to be your limits.

Ability to control your attention and deliberately pushing your self using practice will make your a better human being, may be a god. But who cares..... you do it for love.

Joseph campbell - thank you.... for sharing your knowledge with me, thank you for helping me coming out of my own limited perception of history. Each one of us is a god in its own right.

Each one of us has traversed a difficult journey from a simple cell in the womb to the breathing human being to the one who has endured society and has the ability to survive.

Each of us are gods, fuck anyone who denigrates you.

Know yourself , be yourself...... Everything is temporary other than your actions.

Its hard to live this moment for the sake of this moment, but that is the ideal. Every moment is eternity if you are completely attending to it. Ages are nothing if you never focused.

I can not describe in words, the feeling that one of your major journey ends.
You have to go through fire, in order to know exactly how the fire feels.

Practice - one minute is more than eternity of theory

Nature will always judge you on the basis of your practice. The most powerful variable that correlates with your success is practice. There are other  variables, I do agree,but none are stronger then your practice.

The world will give itself up, if you keep on practicing.

There are no secrets reaming in this sphere.

Lets search answer for other questions.

Keep Smiling

End of the quest - attention is the only true asset we can control

After so many years of search about what makes us humans special. What is the reason that this feeble creature has been able to spread so far and achieve so much, even after being just another ape.


I have come to a simple conclusion-
 There are two assets that make us unique -
1) time - uncontrollable asset.
2) ability to put our attention on a desired object at our will - controllable asset.


And there is only one controllable asset - attention...
If I keep my training up, then I will reach the core of this asset. There has not been anything more difficult than this journey, form not knowing about my self to this conclusion that the most important thing in my life are my questions and the only way to answer those questions is to use my attention as I deem fit.

Search complete..... no more discussion on this topic from now onwards.


core of my existence - my personal questions
method to answer them - controlling my attention
nothing else.

structure and interpretation of computer programs .... mind blowing lectures

I  am in great debt to these two professors who are teaching me how think about computer and programming in general.

I am loving it. These guys speak my language, they talk of abstraction, inheritance, multiple levels, black box....wowow... that is amazing.

I think next few days are going to be absolutely mind blowing.

Thank you  my teachers.

Keep Smiling

Typing code - from hating it to absolutely love it.... its is amazing feeling .... once you mastered it

Earlier I hated typing, but now I fucking love it.


I could go on doing this all most all day and everyday.

Coding is a lot of thinking and a lot of documentation for yourself and for the fellow programmers who will join you in your journey.

I hated expressing my view in any shape or form, but now I fucking love it.

Don't lie to me

to be con.....

Energy flow

I have been observing for some days that my energy flow in the body decreases as the day progresses.
I could actually feel in my head.

Problem - I should rephrase the last sentence. My head feel exhausted by the end of the day. It has certain regions that hurt really badly.

Solution - I have observed that laughing and meditation helps restore my energy level.

I have been training myself to put my attention on only relevant things using power law. I came to realize that I use to do it since my childhood. Even though I did not know the term called power law to use it explicitly but I did practice clearing my head of all the redundant thoughts and focusing on only the most relevant ones.

I was really good at it. I can see that power coming back.


Make your game!!

Keep practicing.... It will change the world.

finding the truth is easy... walking the truth is the hard part

I have to practice, I have to walk the truth.

Come What May!!!

I think every thing that we try to understand should be understood in terms of maps.

specially visual maps. I think it must have been very useful to our ancestors for their survival.

This is a very powerful gift that can be train to be a weapon for cutting BS and looking at the core of the matter.  

do something to spread love -- and you will be surprised how much love you will get in return

Today I am choosing to do one thing everyday  to spreads love in nature.


This has to be strictly outside my known human sphere. Not my family, not my friends, not my relatives... nobody that I already know.

I am choosing it for  a selfish reason.

IT MAKES ME FEEL AWESOME!!!!

it has other benefits .... but who cares... I am doing because it healthy for my animal brain.

GIVE LOVE TO GET LOVE..... what an irony.... the more you give the more you get.

Humans have deep memetic behavior tendencies. They instantly adapt to the environment and most of the people do not have a very strong core of believe and knowledge of truth, so they could not help themselves but get influenced by their environment.


Application of this knowledge-
1) You have to give a lot of love in order to increase the chances of getting love in return.

(disclaimer - do not let anything come between you and work)

2) you can change your life and people in your surrounding .... that power.

converting your weakness into your greatest strength.....

Right now, I have been struggling with it.... but my next target is to be the best programmer in the history of the mankind.

I have started working on it.... I do not know how long it will take but I will not change the battle till the time I will achieve it.

This battle is within the list of battles I have set myself to win the war.

Complete focus is on winning this battle.

Nothing else is more important ...nothing else should be worth my time or attention and energy.

Ujjwal focus you energy.... fucus your attention.... focus your love... this is the only thing.

Let the journey be as tough as it can be.

I am loving it.

today - javascript, ajax, jquery

I need to practice these all.

I want to surprise my friends on 30th evening.

I want to blow their mind with the shear awesomeness of the product that me and kala are building.

It is going to be a lot of work and I want to show the best I can do.

Now would be a good time to reach for perfection.

Even though most of the things I do in life if for the simple reason that I consider them to be worthy of my time. But today I want to do something for my friends and that will be exciting.

I think we will all enjoy the feeling us creating something awesome.

I do not why I am feeling all awesome... and I am high....

If have observed that if you set goals that are meaningful to your existence, then your brain suddenly lit up.

I love all my friends and I want to spend quality time with them while showing the best of what we can achieve.

Suddenly my brain is on steroids and I can not control my excitement....


YUUPOYOUYOOIYHOHOHOHOHOHH!!!!

It will be fun... keep practicing

Once you have climed mount everest

You want to find another mount everest.

But world has only a limited number of Mount Everest.

Keep practicing

you can use your brain to find the path , but you do need your heart to walk the path

the real difficulty is in syncing your heart with the path you have chosen for yourself.


Focus your attention on practice.
It is the only thing that is real.


Keep Smiling

control your attention - train yourself and you can do anything

From now onwards I am completely going to focus on coding. I fucking love it. It had been my dream ever since I was small.

I do not know what is the reason.

I have some explanation for me loving programming on the intuitive level, but I don't have an explicit answer.

May be it is because, I love to do small tests and experiment while I am working on anything and this is something that allows you to test, instantaneously.

Its like having the worlds biggest experimental set at your tips.

I am trying visualize me coding day and night, I think this helps in the long run.

I could start doing by small things everyday, and eventually gain pace where I could deliver code quickly.

I did not know that I would love programming so much.


It had been an experiment, and I am really proud that I did that.

I am planning to give my foreseeable future for improving my skills and build something that is valuable all of us.

This is cool.... I am loving ...I am putting this thing on my subconscious .... to grow and become a part of my existence.


There are only two activities that I dearly love. Meditation and programming.

Lets run!!

keep smiling










 

perceived barriers

Whatever they are, we just need to overcome them only once. The only way to do it, is to put yourself in a situation where you are deliberately pushing yourself to do the experiment.

This is one of the fundamental techniques to improve your self control.

change opinion

You can change other people's opinion....  there is a science to it.

I have to do more experiments.

monopoly - peter thiel

Thank you....

Imagination and reality

In one of the early books  that I had read on psychology, the author had spent a great deal of time explaining that there is hardly any difference between you visualizing aka imagining stuff and you actually doing it in the real world.

From your brain's perspective you are using same neurons in both cases.

To give a concrete example- if you are thinking about drinking a hot coffee, in a white cup, with your right hand, in a beautiful restaurant, with amazing friends........ and when you will actually do this in physical world - there is no way for your brain to separate between the two cases.

That is how we are wired.

This is amazing..... I will discuss about its consequences.
(I would need some more data from psychology department to corroborate what I am saying)

Keep Practicing

you should be proud when other people start calling you crazy....

it generally means that you have found something that is beyond the understanding ability of most of the people which could be extrapolated to you being a black swan.

The only problem remaining is to make it meaningful .... even though people does not understand something when you say in your innate vocabulary, but people do understand the language of money.

If I could use those things that I have learnt to build something that makes  ass-loads of money..... then these same people will start calling you genius.

I am neither.... I am just a person trying to achieve his dreams.

Triumph and disaster- both are imposter, but it is hard for most people to accept and keep improving.


Kumar Ujjwal

Now is the time to use everything you have got and prove it to yourself that you have learnt something in these past eight years

I am eccentric, but I love to be the person I am.

The knowledge I possess have to be test to know the reality as I do not like to live in illusion of knowing something when its not the case.

I will not be shy to accept that I was wrong so that I could get up start learning again.

I have to prove it to myself that my journey has been for knowledge and I have made progress.

If the test leads to monetary outcome then be it.

I have to know the truth...... let me practice what I preach... let me bleed .... let me be me....

Keep Smiling

Incremental rate of return and decremental rate of return

If you are not investing your time and attention on things/activities that have incremental rate of return then by definition you are investing your time in things that have decremental rate of return.

Understanding this in your bones is necessary to keep your focus tuned.
We humans have very little control over our attention and energy. The only way I have found is to keep asking myself this simple question.

If the answer is not in the first category, then I know I need to change something. I know that I am deliberately putting myself into misery.

I know I would wake up some day and shake everything from there core in order to shift everything I have got to focus on the things/activities that I consider have incremental rate of return.

This is difficult stuff.. but practice will automate my response.


Keep Asking yourself... and be brutally honest about it....

 are you doing something that will have incremental rate of return?

.... no matter how small the rate of return is.
`Over period it will always be compounded to a very big number.... beyond your wildest imagination.



Everything is fair in LOVE and WAR.

BUSINESS IS LOVE AND WAR -BOTH.

Don't ever be afraid of big guys, of people with deep pockets .... because they will not remain big or their pockets will not remain deep if they are not focused on things that have incremental rate of return.

If you can push yourself to the limit of sanity in order to search and execute things that have incremental rate of return..... you will achieve your dreams.

Be Brutally honest about it..... there are no consolation prizes in life.

Keep Looking for incremental rate of return activities.

I think world will be a better place if all humans could understand and act upon the aforementioned fact.

Of all the experiments I love two the most

Currently, I have only two things in my mind-

1)Practice meditation - creating neurons
2) Practice coding - destroying neurons

Meditation bring sanity back to my existence.

Coding is the method I am using to see my dream come true. It require a lot of focus and consistent hours of neuron firing.

I am loving both... I just want to keep practicing...

the most efficient way of acquirin knowledge and applying knowledge is - Practice

I am hundred percent sure - practice is the most quickest way to know the truth.

living by the truth or the harvard degree

Which one will you choose - the truth or the social proof

I would always and always choose truth. I have a selfish reason and an intellectual reason to choose the truth.

Selfish - no matter what truth always wins in the end.... I like to win.
Intellectual - There is always something nagging in your head if you do not accept intellectually honest answer. You slowly loose your ability to separate BS and real meat.


Social proof might allow you to win a few battles, but I am sure the war is won by truth... always.Period.

Lets us see who will win the war.

Kumar Ujjwal

If I find deep meaning in what I am doing... I love it and could potentially do all my life

Meaning is directly related to my personal quest and aspirations in life.

It does not matter what anyone thinks of the activity I am doing, the only person whose opinion is important in this case is ....... ME.

I am loving this perseverance to achieve this dream of mine to build something that I and many other will use on a daily basis.

I will seduce these people in using this tool to simplify there life and make them use it by its shear awesomeness

It awesome to be awesome!!!!

relax and let me do the hard work... I was born for it..... huuraaaaaah

I am loving it I can see myself cruising these software development and quality upliftment processes at the speed of light.

The road is set .... lets run... ujjwal

Found my next hero - Joseph juran

I have been building the medical platform for some days, but I was not happy with the quality of the work that I was producing.

My brain had intuitively started pushing away from actual coding and wanted me to find a solution to this problem. I, in my desperation, started looking for solution to improving quality.

Guess what, I did not type "quality on google"; rather started watching videos of steve jobs. I knew that his passion for high quality must have it origin in the external world. No one is born with anything, you use mimickery to learn from society.

I was searching for hint in his talks, suddenly I found a video that I has not seen. It was titled "steve jobs on joseph juran and quality", my bulb just got lit.
First question - who the hell is joseph juran.

Watched that video and a few more, got convinced that he was the guy I was searching for, downloaded his book, started reading. got more convinced he was the one I was looking for.

Now the road to quality is set... I just have to begin the practice.

Thank you steve and joseph.............

we all show mimetic behavior ...... the choice is in which behavior we choose to mimick.

Keep Smiling


Quality planning
quality control
quality improvement

culture is the most important thing to me

Its all about people.... its all about what kind of people you surround yourself with.


Nobody has all the answers, nobody can be all powerful and all knowing.

But the culture can help nurture environment where failure is tolerated, where people respect for trying out things and making a difference.

I know its importance because I have seen its affect on me and people around me.

Me and my friends use to play basket ball for  hours everyday.

We would make mistake and fall, but nobody would even keep that in their mind they will just pick the person up and let the game go on. The person will do his or her analysis about the necessity for improvement, but he/she would not be looked down by anyone for trying and failing.

But real life is not like that, here when people fail then others will simply dissociate themselves from that entity.

I have a problem with this culture, when person has fallen he/she needs most care and upliftment.

Indian culture is not like that, and it sucks for that reason.

People are incentivised for being fake people with fake smile and hollow existence with charming faces and dying breathe , feeling themselves to be the curse of the planet.

But I have a solution for this problem, because I know people have deep mimetic behavior showing tendencies I could stick to what I know to be truth in nature. By doing that people will have some example to share their true self.

I will be able to create a culture which would be as close to meritocracy as one can go.

I could actually begin a cultural revolution, I have to walk the talk and let the creativity and perseverance win.

I frankly do not care about what others do, I want to be  in such a culture and I want to surround myself with such people hence I will create such a culture.

Fuck the World.


Keep Smiling .... Keep improving

Self control - fight back

No matter who you are
whatever you do
I have a request for you
Do not come in our way.


Self control leads to fight-back tendencies.

If I conclude that some endeavour of mine is meaningful to my existence, I can promise you I will fight-back as many number of times necessary in order to win.


Then winning is not just for the triumph it brings, on the contrary it will become personal.

The more you would fight with me, the more the delayed ..... the more powerful and resilient I would become.

I did not know that in my childhood it was self control that use to manifest itself as fight-back tendencies.

But having being on the soul searching journey I know it now.

there is only one condition in which I will not begin the journey, if I do not deem it to be worthy of my time or my quest.



Truth -

Haath ki lakeero par itna aitbaar na kijiye, naseeb unka bhi hota hai, jinke haath nahi hote.

Fight back

What if I train my mind for failure, what if I expect the most likely outcome of anything that you do to be failure.

But there is one more surety, that is I will fight back until I reach the preconceived success.

I remember my basket ball days, I would practice for hundred of hour to perfect one stance.

All the while I was failing again and again in my head. I had prepared myself internally to go through those many failure in order to see the outcome I wanted to see.

Mastery is the goal

Don't ever do much.... but whatever you do.... just make sure that you are the master in it.

learn using mastery as the target...not on batch system that our education system wants us to believe.

There is no way that your brain was designed for batch mode learning.... But mastering survival in the savana was surely the necessity.

Nolan bushnell - one of my heros

From different angles I am getting the same message that it is not about the idea.

It is about DOING, It is about the PRACTICE.


Everyone and his dog has an idea..........but only a few mother fuckers ever get courage to act on those ideas.


Fuck Ideas... from now onwards .... focus on the person who is executing it.

Coz you know in your brain that the idea is going to evolve, may be morph into completely different thing... who the fuck cares!!!

Till the time you know you are in a the hands of a good executioner, a person with the marvelous habit of PRACTICING, EXPERIMENTING, DOING and MAKING THINGS HAPPEN.

Being such a person and finding such people is the most important goal of my life.

It is more of an art than science...... it is difficult and I would enjoy every minute of pursuing such a cause. By the end of the journey,if I would become such high standard executioners. I would think that I would have achieved the next goal that I have set.

Let me give a concrete shape to my quest-

perfection in execution is the ideal.
getting closer to it is the goal.
path is to keep improving and testing your current status of execution
Set your own benchmarks and keep a track of how far short you have landed on every try
but relentless about reaching the perfection
there is no force in nature to stop you from achieving that goal.. other than yourself

improvement needed.... but the piece is self sufficient

Promise - a force I never understood

How can some casual words mean so much to someone that they would be ready to give there life for those collection of words.

I saw its importance in my life as well.

I do see people giving everything they have- financially, emotionally, psychologically, physically---

to things that would not make sense to any external entity.

I would love to get scientific answers from our psychology department.

Why do we give such importance to some promises and not to others.

Importance given to any  set of promises follow power law.

Some promises would be so important to your existence that you would gladly give your life for them  and some promises would never cross your mind again.

If it is some force that we can utilize to achieve things that are perceived to be beyond our abilities then it is worth pursuing this question.

I will experiment on this and would try to find the core of the question.


Promise..... an invisible force to engulf your existence to some abstract concept.

WOW.... that was heavy.


Keep Smiling

Some models

1) self control
2) stream of thought
3) Power law
4) neurons test
5) mimetic behaviour
6) practice 


Sooner or later I will elaborate these.

Two fundamental questions

1) Do you have self control?
2) What do you use it for?

Answers-

1) YES
2) acquire knowledge and apply knowledge


What are your answers- ( these are subjective questions... therefor I do not consider any answer to be correct or incorrect)


But I ask these questions everyday and I need to remind myself, the core reasons of doing things I want to do.

These questions are agnostic to your knowledge, sex, societal status, caste , creed, religion, health,stage of life. To me these are everlasting questions. If you could honestly answer these for yourself, then I think you know what you are doing in life.
If you are not able to answer these questions, then welcome to the journey called life.

But the most dangerous stand would be, you  portraying that you do possess the answer when in reality you do not. Its a huge dis-service to your own existence.

I can promise you, If you truthfully try to answer these questions then you will see yourself changing and getting to the core of your existence.


Over these years I have build certain models to understand reality, I would be glad to share all those models to everyone.

I have not been able to fully apply these models in my life but the struggle is on and I will not stop till the very last breathe.

Testing becomes the most important thing to gain confidence

If I want to be sure of anything, I have to test it to the limit of its existence.

If you do not test , you do not know its behaviour ... be it machine ... be it mammal.

Gamify Everything

There has to be a better way.

Our Brain loves games....
 

I think life is nothing but a collection of a long list of games:
1) go to school
2) do shitty jobs
3) fuck a few
4) get exhausted
5) fuck again
6) do shitty jobs
7) have children
8) ask them to repeat the same mistakes that you committed ....

There has to be a better way.

the fuckup threshold

I love doing difficult things, I mean things that I could not have done in the past and activities that I consider to be beyond my current capabilities.


There is a fundamental reason behind my choice.

Ever since I was small, I have been doing small experiments on myself and society.
Every time I did something challenging, my challenge threshold increased even further.

The more difficult things I was doing, the more difficult things I wanted to do.

Its like a spiral- your brain will trigger you to search for such activities in which you will get to increase this threshold.

It is almost automatic, and now I gravitate towards things that shake the hell out of my existence.

It is one of the greatest gift of nature.

Over period things that you use to consider difficult will give up and you will start ruling them, there is no feeling that can come close to this feeling of accomplishment and getting beyond your perceived limitations.


Everyday, you get to improve and your love affair with life gets even more interesting.


Keep Smiling

What will be the only thing that you will remain with you - Habits

When everything is said and done.

When the journey of your life is about to finish.

You might have been able to live your dreams or you might not have been able to make them into reality.


You might have tasted this bitter sweet pain called love or not.

You might have done the best you could have done or not.

But I ask what would truly be yours and will vanish with your existence.

Habits that you would have build in those long years.

I remember Warren Buffet saying something similar to a passing class of MBA's, that don't worry about your marks or your IQ. In the journey called LIFE,your habits will have much more to say in comparison to your IQ.


Back then it did not make much  sense to me.

But then most successful people say some shitty things that normal people like me have a hard time to grasp.


I think today I could say that it makes perfect sense to me.

As I have been getting more information and have generated different perspective, over the years.
I could see how small were the battles of academia.

How little was expected out of us and we in our nativity would allow ourselves to be judged by someone else, who would make the rules of the game and would force us to run for the top position.

Guess what, you could be the best in winning those small battles but if you have not built everlasting habits from those experiences; I can assure , sooner or later you would regret wastage of your time and money.


This is my request to all students and people in general-
 look for the deeper meaning behind your activities ....
ask why are you doing it and what are the core issues you are trying to address by doing such activity
Ask why the game is designed the way it is
I can assure you, most people have no idea about the bigger picture.... they are there because someone asked them to be... as most others.

Most people don't know what they want from life.

Don't be most people... be yourself... be brutally honest.... keep looking for the core reason for your existence.



I have a simple mission....
if every day I would sleep having slightly improved my habits... I would be a happier person.


I know whatever we put attention to .... it grows.... let me be very careful about my habits.


Keep Improving.
















 

If you had been given a chance to write the history of the planet...

 What would you want it to be?


What if someone would take this idea of creating a world from scratch...?

what if someone decide that the world need more openness and respect for one another... and strive to build such a world?

Kid you not, it is hell of a big opportunity.

But why not?

Why not try to equalize opportunities.... why not let the world go towards meritocracy?

why not give blood, sweat and tears to build a  world of your dreams ?

Why not strive to stand for something greater than yourself?

Why not aim so high .... that definition of impossibility is rewritten?

I do not know how one would go about doing it, but surely it is doable.

Every time you get tired, every time you get cheated, every time you get exhausted, every time you get drained.... remember this moment will only comes once in the history of the planet... make the most of it.

Practice till you attain perfection in your execution.

Nobody can teach anyone to aspire for excellence, it is an endeavor taken on your own.

As I say, Greatness is chosen... always.

Every minute you are writing the history of the world with your actions, you can not look for answer in the outer world.  Its too chaotic to make sense. Go with your own experiments and experiences ... they will never betray you.

No matter what ... just keep practicing.... keep moving forward... keep doing what your heart says...people may come ..people may go.

Your actions are permanent....

You are ephemeral, but not what you stand for.

Keep digging deeper, keep practicing.... its the only key.

All my heroes have taught me this... which is contrary to what public has been telling me.

That you can work your way towards your dream, that you can change the history of the world .... may be in some small way or may be in some big way... but surely you do.

And you should never forget that..... keep working and breathing for your dreams.

They are more important than any harvard degree or external prestige bestowed by society.

What a beautiful way to deflate BS from society, just ask why not?
let people defend the fundamental of anything in existence. You get to see the core reason of why something is the way it is and not otherwise.


People are generally polite and in politeness they hesitate to tell the truth. Even in the most obvious cases of shitty things,  people will apprehend their true intentions. I think that is a disservice to both individuals. Tell the truth, the person might not like it; but he will always respect you for your strength of character for not being a sycophant.


I heard someone saying that-

the powerful should have equally powerful moral character.

Not sure what exactly it means but on an abstract level I can understand what it is trying to mean.


If at all I have learnt anything in life, if at all I have any knowledge of truth.. I am going to put at stake everything I possess for the next goal.

For seven years, bloody seven years, I was in hibernation; intentionally.

Now would be a good time to apply whatever I have learnt in those seven years. Now would be the to wake up and smell the coffee.

Now or never

I have build a lot of context, some true some abstractions. But now everything is to be deliberately put at stake, knowing that odds of success are low... but entrepreneurship is not a logical choice for a short life that we live, even then I have chosen it. I love creating stuff, learning new things, building and sharing my knowledge.

Who knows when will the sweet bell of success arrives, but who cares. You do it for the journey, for the chance to make something amazing that will have its own existence over and above yours.

Just imaging that stuff is so energizing, now what would it be to actually make some thing that you and other people will use on a daily basis.

Long before I started thinking about entrepreneurship, I had read something written by TESLA.... he had said the joy of creating something from nothing exceeds that of food, materialistic toys, sex... etc.
I know in my bones that he was correct.

Thank you Tesla.

Now its my turn to build something .... to change the world in my own small way.

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Peter theil

Courage is in far short of supply than genius.


WOOWWWW.... I am in love...he is bloody right.

No matter what.... why not

why not...

Now I understand why people are not able to execute their dreams

Fear


Even if we want to do something, our brain stops us from trying. I think the reason behind this phenomenon is unfamiliarity of the neurons with the activity.

Then it becomes our duty to tell ourselves, there is nothing to be afraid of ... keep practicing and you will rule this activity.


The biggest test is in the beginning of the activity, as every interaction with the activity will lower our fear .... as it would be something that our brain would become familiar with.

Over time, there is even this possibility that we become really good at it.. might even start enjoying the challenge.

We just need to control ourselves in those preliminary exposure moments.

If You keep coming back .... then I can assure you ... you will become fearless.

You will become familiar and your neurons will demand for more.


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what a beautiful analogy - neurons as soldiers

lets think over it and elaborate it.

Think of your neurons as soldier... keep that in your head and you will always be at the peak of your performance.

A logical argument in support of Practice

Of all the variables in life, I think the only one that is in my perfect control is what do I Practice.

Everything is abstraction other that cold hearted practice.

Your neurons does what you have asked them to practice. They are just small soldiers if you do not train them well by practicing hard and being brutally honest.

They will not be able to win battles for you.

Train them, use practice.

They will do the rest for you - that too for free.


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Practice ... practice.... practice

Practice ... practice.... practice

whats your super power - ability to focus my attention on the things I want to achieve

 I asked myself why was I not able to put my self to code. Given that, I love code.

WHY WHY WHY WHY......

When I got relaxed, something pop in my head because I was doing it without using my super power.

I had a question, what made humans special. I had been searching for this question.

I did not find any universal answer.

The subjective answer that I did find was - I have this ability to focus my attention on something for a very long time, I can persist with something that I was for a considerable period of time.

In comparison to people I see around me, other than that there is not a single shit that is different about me.

If I use power law on everything  I do considering I have this super power, It becomes a dangerous combination.

The world does not know this, but one day you will.

I just wanted to keep this for the record.

Keep acquiring knowledge and applying knowledge.

coding is meditation

meditation is the best activity I have ever done.

Reverse logic... I love coding



Keep Meditating

the more I am practicing power law ... the more realxed I am becoming

At any point of time, there are multiple things that we are supposed to do.

Our brain is not good at prioritizing things....

and mostly out of those hundreds of things only a few are really worth doing... rest of the work is either total BS or creation of our mental connections.

Anyhow you will only be able to execute only a handful of things in a day, as you have only 24 hours..... NO MATTER WHAT.

If we could somehow know what those most important activities are , it would greatly improve meaning in our life.

We would not have to wander, we could just do a few things but whatever we would do... it would be best that humanity has ever seen.

That is my intention, that is what I am aiming for.

To improve the quality of my execution that will be beyond anything humanity has ever seen.

I have to tell you it is damn hard..... but that is what I want to do.


That is what I will give my life for.

One act of that standard of quality will be better that all acts below that standard.

One such act will be sufficient to give meaning to my existence.

Lets keep searching and keep improving our execution.


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Businesses that are not online....... they would all die.... sooner or later

if you want to live an independent life.... if you want to keep your freedom in the 21st century, then you have to attach yourself with some activity which is related to programming.

I can very easily predict that almost everything in the world will be effected by programming... I mean everything.


Its scary, but simultaneously a huge opportunity to create an new more open world. A world where there will be more equality in opportunity. A world where hard work would have a better chance to make difference.


Guess what you can contribute in building such a world. Yes, critics will have there apprehension. They always have, its our duty to keep proving them wrong. To keep moving the human race forward beyond the wildest dreams of these so called critics.... and thats hard.... but who cares ..... your heart says to do it then....

 Just fucking do it.


Just fucking do it

Nobody knows the truth and whoever says that they do know the truth are a bunch of mother fucking liars.

Always ask for evidence and then you will see the story will unfold in multiple directions ....accept them providing any concrete evidence to make up our mind.


Hence, beware of experts.


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wherever you put attention...... it grows

No matter how shitty situation ..... whatever you will focus up on, it will grow.

Controlling your attention is the most important power that a human being possess.

You put your complete attention on it .... be sure it will grow... it will come to fruition.

I think it is related to neural plasticity.


To be con.

It is very rare to find people who have dreams. Its rarer to find people who have tried to live their dreams. Its extremely rare to find people who have achieved their dreams.


I find myself in that category of people who have been able to work on their dreams.

I fundamentally believe that everyone can do anything.

Genius is chosen.

You can work you way towards being a genius.

1% inspiration , 99% perspiration - absolutely correct.

Intellectual power is so  highly over rated.

Its your intrinsic drive to achieve your dream  that is the key to live your dreams.

If you are intrinsically driven to achieve it, then you would put at stake everything in life in order to achieve your dreams.


I want to write a poem- ( need a lot of improvement)

DREAMS
_______________________________________

My struggle is my victory
my journey is my love

victory is an event ... journey is the reward


to stand and not accept it
to be mocked and be thrashed

keep standing and willing accept the lonely journey


to remember the core, to keep digging for more
to fail a million , but never be defeated


you know your efforts are short, will always be



You do it for the love, till the day your heart stops
yes you will be scared, it will not make sense for a long period


but who was doing for victory anyway, keep digging... keep bleeding


for my child ..... you will know whats love.

I feel so stupid... that after 2 and a half years I have finally realised how important EXECUTION IS!!!

But truth be told... I accept it took me two and a half year of my life to finally nail it down to this one thing that looks obvious now.


My complete focus in on execution quality from today onwards.

I am not going to let anything come in between me and perfection in execution... at any cost.

FOCUS ON EXECUTION..... Everything else will take care of itself.

I think to improve the execution quality I have to use power law on everything I do

Execution toward perfection need me to execute everything I do with same quality.

You can not be sloppy at some things and marvelous at others. You can choose which all activity to focus on, but the quality of those activities have to be in line with your journey towards perfection in execution.

Execution is not something that you do separately, breathing execution, writing is execution, loving is execution... typing is execution, programming is execution, meeting people is execution,... you can not separate anything that you do from execution. Hell!!!! thinking is execution.


You have to police yourself on multiple levels to finally achieve that level of perfection in execution.

What you can choose is which activities to execute.
What number of activities to execute.
with whom to execute
But what you should never ever ever....ever do is to do a thing without thinking about its execution quality.....Make it a habit...then things will happen on its own.

Lets begin with a totally unrelated thing from the point of entrepreneurship.

I believe small things do matter... therefore I want to start by focusing my breathing habit.
I am going to force myself into breathing in a particular way.



Everything is Execution....look for power law in everything and keep improving ... there is no fucking secret.

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Today I am biting the bullet and accepting that execution the only thing that matters

I can come up with the best Idea the world would ever see, but that has zero value.

I have to execute it in such a way that it goes to its logical conclusion. THE EPIC END.


Think of it this way, you want to make a movie and your idea is the story of the movie.

Now you have to execute it so that you give an epic conclusion.

You can either make inception ... an awesomely stupid story ...with multiple abstraction levels.... but executed spectacularly well that it will be remembered for a new decades....OR

you could make Alexander the great..... An epic story with the best warrior ever to walk the planet... but executed so much shit... that it burns my soul.



I just want to say that I have been hit by this truth of nature... that execution is the most important thing for me.

The beauty of learning execution is that over period you are going to improve and could refine your skills of execution toward perfection.

Ideas may come and go.... execution will be everlasting....  This is worth my time

Keep improving your execution..

Can I keep doing difficult things all my life - YES

I love doing difficult things and beating the hell out of them. I can pump up the amplitude of difficulty and keep moving no matter what.

Until one day the difficulty of the problem will be so high that it will consume my physical existence.

Awesome!!!

Phil libin thank you-

I was discussing about the problem I was facing that coding seems easy for me right and hence boring for my brain.
I am not able to do this thing because my brain is saying it is easy.... had a log discussion with my friend ... that was somewhat convincing and I was getting on track slowly.

But then I asked which web company I really admire and what are the companies I really admire and would like to learn from.... unanimously it was EVERNOTE.

I have been using evernote for quite some time, I think these people have built something special something very close to my idea of perfection.

I wanted to learn from these guys.... so I search for phil libin as I knew that he was the CEO.

I found Ycombintor speech in which he said ...Exactly what I need to hear.....BUILDING THE PRODUCT and GETTING INVESTMENT WAS ONE OF THE MOST EASIEST THINGS IN THE JOURNEY OF THE STARTUP..... THE ROAD ONLY GETS TOUGHER FROM HERE.....

Man he nailed it.... it was sufficient to get excited again that a lot of learning is remaining and I will get to solve a lot many difficult problems.

Thank you bro ... One day I will personally thank you....


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Greatest asset we possess- ability to direct our attention

I have literally seen everything in my surrounding vapourize when I have put my attention on something that I want.
I think one of the greatest asset we human possess is to direct our attention to something and give every thing we have got to that one entity or activity that we are so dearly focused up on.

Achieving that state is hard. Some people call it a state of flow. I do not totally agree to that interpretation of the phenomenon.
To me it is an experience in which nothing else remains in the universe- You might be blowing trumpet in my ears and I will not be disturbed at all because the thing I have chosen to focus on has consumed all my attentional bandwidth.

OHHHHH!

It is a good model to understand what I am trying to say.

I had read somewhere that we humans could only hold a few pieces of information in our head - around seven independent pieces of information.

Now, lets assume it to be true for the moment.

That means if these seven thing are seven metaphorical seats in my head that could be utilized by any piece of information. Some seats will be automatically filled by our environment and some seats will be in our control.

Now, becoming more focused simply means we being able to deliberately fill these seats instead of these seats getting filled on their own because of any other reason.

If and only if we could practice and make a habit to deliberately fill theses seats then over period of prolonged practice we would become better in putting our attention to things and activities we want to focus.

There is no secret of any kind- any person who is willing to test this could experiment and let me know the outcome. I would urge you to experiment for at least six months for half an hour every day.

If this the case- then lets make a few predictions.
1) over period external things will not affect you until you want them to affect- basically neurons in your frontal lobe will increase. Specifically in the region responsible for your self control, as all the while you have been training your brain to control your attention and focus on where you want it to be.

2) You will become emotionally strong- as it a corollary to the first one. Your brain will not easily be affected by emotions as you will get to choose whether to get affected by surrounding environmental emotional state or not, instead of being a victim of the mimetic behavior of human.

3) Your will power will be off the chart.

4) Better at choosing activities with delayed gratification.

Back to attention- I am thankful to meditation for helping me getting better at focusing my mental energy.

It has been one of the most important gifts of my life that I have received and I will always be in debt to my martial arts teacher who taught me this magnificent art.

I hope science would perform more experiments on mindfullness and meditation so that I get to learn more and improve my experience.

The Problem-

It is practically impossible to sustain that state of attention. I have been trying to maintain it but I have been failing for quite some time.

But I have not given up, I know how important it is to be absolutely hyperfocused on what you are trying to do. Hence,I will keep practicing till the last breathe of my existence. I do not know how long it will take ,I do not know it will ever happen, I do not know that I will ever be able to achieve the level of control..... But I will keep practicing.

Even one experience of that state of mind is sufficient for you to crave for it. I have had multiple experiences ..... Lets see how far I can take it.


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Only experiment can make you realize the truth

Your brain can put you states where it could make you believe things that are not true.

Such as,
1)you believing something is true when actually it would be not.
2) you believing that you understand something when actually you have no idea what you are talking about.
3) you believing that you are making progress when actually you have not been tracking your progress and have no idea how far you have come or how far you have to go before you achieve that goal.

This is one of the most bizarre experience of my life.

I have in my head one the most amazing machine man has ever seen , but one has to make external measure and parameter to keep in it in check.

I do not know how to explain that situation when humans believe in something when actually it is not the case. I believe it must have some evolutionary benefit in doing so.

In the prehistoric times, even though we would have been wandering in the open jungle........Believing that we were safe would have been very important for our survival .

I do not know how... about why do we believe in things without evidence of any kind. The phenomenon is very real, and if you do not keep a check then you brain could lead you in directions that you never anticipated.

Example-

I do not consider myself a lazy person, but from a few days I have not been able to code. Not because I do not want to but I have been getting these signals from my brain that coding is too easy for you to spend your valuable time. But I know if I would not code, there is no way  that this thing could be done and it is vital for our company to make progress. Coding might actually be easy for my brain, but the fact does not change that no matter how easy or difficult it is if I would not do it then  there is no chance of it getting done.

Now the problem is - I knew this from the very first moment of the beginning of my procastination.
Apparently, my had to be experimentally shown that it was the case. As it is the fourth day now without me making any progress in terms of code. Today in the morning when I experimentally realized the fact then suddenly I have been switched in this mode where I can not think of anything but - CODE.

I am trying to draw conclusions from this experiment-
I have to experimentally and externally show to my brain or to any one who wants to know the truth because no amount of reason or theory could be conclusive to settle the vagueness in our brain.

Brutal/blunt/unbiased experimental evidence which could be replicated anywhere could only be the way our brain can find the truth.

I think intuitively everyone knows this thing.

But now I have brought it on the explicit plane- for me- to believe in anything that my brain wants me to believe or someone else wants met to believe I have to be given evidence.

I have to be brutally honest with myself, because thats the  only way to reach the core the problem and find the truth.


RF said- you are the most gullible person to your own reasoning, hence you have to be very careful in not believing everything that your brain wants you to believe- you should always and I mean always ask for evidence.

Finally- Don't be too harsh on yourself for being wrong sometimes.

You are human and no matter what you will make mistakes. But never stop improving, never give up your quest. Just move from failures to failure till the time you reach the core and understand the truth.

Life is not binary when when it come to improvement of your existence- it is a gradient, just pick yourself up and keep moving in the direction you want your life to go.


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bored

I have been wanting to code for a few days but somehow I have not coded a single line.

I do not know why, the moment I had understood how programming works my brain has put me in a situation where it is not letting me code anything.

I need a challenging thing to look up to otherwise I will be extremely bored.

I have  a list of features that I have to deliver for my loving users, but I have not been coding a shit.

I do not know what is the problem.

Ever since I could remember I wanted to code and now that I have learned how to code, my brain is in this costant hybernation state and it is refusing to come back to normality where I could focus my full attention on the  task. Aaaaaarrrgggg! its irritating.


I think I know the solution.

never never never stop... until

you have hit the core of the problem...... until you know the fundamentals of the problem.... once you do, it will be your choice to solve to leave it, thereafter.


But not before it, at any cost.


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Love your customers

kathy siera...

Write more on it.

learn how to dig a hole - model for education system

Write it

A simple question

Why not I document my journey from a person that does not have any monetary shit to a person that I intend to become ?


Why not share how hard I am will to love and work for the goal.

Why not show the twist and turn that I have to go through on this interesting journey.


I do not think that it will be ever useful to anyone, who care. I just feel like doing it and I will do it.

One disclaimer - I can choose what to put on this series.... but whatever I will put will be cold hearted truth.


The journey of love begins today.....

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Did you use power law on everything you could?

Every day before you sleep ... you have to do one hour of meditation, at minimum.

I that one hour first forty five minutes will be utilized for bringing your attention to a cenralized point, then next 15 mins will be used for answering this question.

You have to be brutally honest about it, that is the only way to achieve what you want to achieve.


Greatness is Chosen.

Greatness is chosen

Like most of the things in life.

The battle at the battle ground is not under your control but -

the practice session and the battle in the training period is under your control.

I remeber from my years of basketball practice.

I never performed better than my practice sessions ... I never could muster more focus of intuition on the battle ground than what I had on the training ground.

This is a huge lesson for life.


You can perfectly control you training environment. You get to decide the perfection and greatness in the training ground.

Life is a continuous battle that I love.... I can calculate how hard I want to train and achieve whatever I want to achieve......... Now suddenly the dream seems possible.

Meditation is compitative advantage

Elaborate

Nothing external motivates me to do anything

I have observed that I am not motivated to do anything until and unless it comes from within.
Nothing external instigates me to achieve anything. I have worked hard in the past, I have worked for 20 hours or more in a single day, a few times. Now when I look back and try to understand how I was able to do that amount to work, I have a simple answer- It was intrinsically driven.

I spent seven years of my life, doing essentially nothing except reading gazzillion books because I had some serious questions and I wanted answers at any cost.

Now those questions have been answered and hence my intensity of work has gradually come down.

But, having tasted blood once I am willing to live like I was living for those seven years- Totally immersed.

I know how to do it, I have to find a powerful question that would shake me from my comfort zone. I need a deep question that simply takes over my mind and I could prioritize it on top of everything else in my life.

I will soon find it - I know ,I will.

I can promise that by the time I will read this article after a few years, I would have found the question and would have worked my ass off.

I a prompted to extrapolate this conclusion that if you want to get the best work done from anyone, you should help them find the most meaningful question to their existence. And working hard in the physical world will just be a search to find the answer to your personal quest.

The harder one would work the more he/she will find about the question and its multiple layers of abstraction ,and after a few years one would find the core of the question - which would be the closest thing to the event of actually finding the answer.

I have to experiment it on myself and generate enough evidence before I could conclusively make a judgement.


Power-law help me find the question....

Candidates-
Can I apply power-law in almost all things in my life....?

Would add more questions.

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denifne it and you will surpass it

IF you define a goal, an end to your current journey then eventually you will go beyond it.

Your goal could be Rs 10000 to a Lamborghini to a fucking trillion dollars.... does not matter. The super computer placed at the top of your body needs a definite point to target. Every time you will fail in achieving that target, your neurons will make more connection- something that we call learning.

Let me give a model,
Every time you fail, you brain is helpless but to interpret that situation as survival threat. It will produce reaction in you brain that will help in storing this bitter experience. But if you zoom it a little, as I see it- These emotional experience helped us in our survival in the evolutionary history of mankind. Emotion is a reaction built by nature for us to store the information is our brain.

Every new failure feels like a survival threat, in prehistoric time it must have been correct- if you stop while an animal is chasing your back...... there is no failure- there is end of your existence- Death (instant death to be precise).

So, no wonder we feel shit after every failure.

But there is a silver lining to the story- if you understand it on a meta level that heavy emotional experience is just our mind trying to create a lasting memory and nothing else, you could hack your brain into making it fail again and again and again. Eventually, it will become habitual to the shit you are trying to do and you would become comfortable at failing on it- The more number of times you repeat it and refine it, the more you brain will become habitual( which it loves,it wants you to do known things, it wants to protect you and known things are generally safe) and eventually your connection will become so dense that it would become an almost intuitive reaction and on that day you would have finally- learnt it and mastered it.



This is just a model that could be useful in making yourself do seeming difficult things, in helping you experiment in life.

TO BE CONT....

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If it does not consume you ... you are wasting your time

There are a billion things to do in life, Why we stuck with the things we are stuck with?

If whatever you are doing does not consume every breathe of your existence, if it does not suck every ATP packet out of your neurons, if it that thing and you are not one.... you are wasting your time.


Ask yourself, If you die at this very moment could you say that you are or you have been doing the best that you could have done with your existence.

One of my friend said why do we have to be paranoid about doing what we want to do, he said why is it not sufficient to just be mildly interested and try to do it.

My simple answer to his question was - life is brutally unjust.

There is very high probability that the world will not allow you to do the mildly interested stuff that you want to do. Only and only if you are paranoid and are breathing it every minute, if I would have shaken you up at 3 am in the morning and asked you what were you dreaming about .....  and your answer is not the thing you are trying to do, then there is very high probability that you would not be able to make it happen.

Live it, breathe it, sleep with it, dream it, make it the only thought you care about.... then there would be some chance to make it happen. Otherwise, stay away from this route of uncertainty... you would better be safe and cozy in your day job. Have kids, grow a family but do not nurture a dream.

I do not intend to denigrate any one, I just want to convey the truth.

You can do it... given you are living it.


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Power law

It states that we should do a few things (or only one thing) but be the best in the whole universe.
I am deliberately wiping out most of the shit I have in my head in order to bring these concepts in practical life.


The first thing I am choosing is to apply is power law in all my life. Until and unless I would have perfected its application in everything I do, I am not going to learn anything.

Whats the use of keep something in your head , if you would not be able to use it.

I remember vivekananda saying a simple thing-

Its far better to base you life upon 5 experimental truths , instead of libraries with complete chaos in your head.


After every few years in my life, I have to make such decisions where everything I had done up until that moment has to be put on stake for the next thing I aspire to achieve.

I do not know this is logical or not,but to achieve something one has to pay a price; this is the price I have to pay for the questions I wish to pursue.

But if you are not answering your own question , then you are basically answering someone else questions.

What is life if not one big question in itself?


Power Law - Is that all you have got!!!!!!

I am coming to get babe...


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why do we do what we do

we choose to do things that we do, not because they are easy but because they are hard.
Inspired by kennedy

 (article needs some work)


 Because humanity will be deprived of those endeavors if such we would not put their life on the line to make things happen.

Because most humans are entangled in their own assumptions that they would not ever dare to test them.

Because we knowingly challenge the painful path and aspire for the goal.

Because if we would not do it, it will not be done.

Because we know that life is small and searching meaning in life is one of the main goals of our existence.

Because we see love in pain and strength in ignorance. Ignorance to knowledge is a one way, so be happy that you are ignorant of many things in life and keep learning ... keep improving.


Because we know that the difference between theory and practice is action.
If we act on our believes it becomes practical, otherwise it is theory.

Because we want to build a world using our believes.

Is that all you have got!!!!!!!

What an awesome statement.

its hard to work with purely emotional beings

emotions cloud our ability to prioritize and lead us to make judgement on the basis of intensity of what one feels right now instead of what is most important right now.

There is a big difference in these two cases-
1)  beautiful girl that is asking you for a date right now - emotionally heightened feeling
2) your servers are down from last 5 hours and nobody but you could fix the problem- important ( your life company/dream/life depends on this)

In theory seems so easy to dispel the first case that of course you will go with the latter, but anyone who has been in a similar situation will tell you how hard it is in real world.


Emotions are good , they help us value things but they are temporary and ephemeral in nature. When you emotional threshold will lower, you will see ask your self why did you take that judgement. As it happens with most of the people.

A bit ironical statement-
you should love your emotions, don't marry them.
Use intellect+emotions(both the resources that nature has endowed us with) - better judgement.



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power law on humans

Personal - handful - only love is the metric... Period.
Professional - most of the people - only output matters - you may love me - you may hate me and my methods but in the end it will be output.. it will be what we achieve together... so do not work with me if you are not output driven and are not ready to put every breathe of your life to achieve it.

programming - it feels like teaching

From the programmers end, when one is developing an application we could imagine it to be a process of teaching the user or the customer to achieve something. If we could imagine a 5 year old who is going to use our application then we will design it such that it should be one of the most simplest  things in the entire universe. The more simplicity you achieve without loosing functionality, the more your customer will love you. It does not matter that you have every feature ever requested, what is important that you have used power-law to find and implement the most important features in your application.

Simplicity - when you can not remove anything from something without destroying utility.

I believe this simplicity should extend to the backend as well. Simplicity is loved by everyone, though some people will frown at the idea of being treated as six year olds, but  in the long run it make the most sense. I am not going to let anyone mess with simplicity for any whimsical shit in anyone's head.


So back to the point - the more simple you keep it the better would be
1) understanding of the code
2) readability of the code
3) changebility
4) fronted customer will be the center not the cryptic coder...... which should be the case , always. As it is the end customer who is going to use and achieve goals using out software.4

5) Simplicity - The process will be close to you teaching your customer. One has to be clear with their intentions and expectations otherwise the user has full right to bug you a gallizzion times in your face and make your life hell... as you were the one who committed the mistake of not looking from the angle of the user and made some shit that only you and you clique could make sense of.


Achieving simplicity in thoughts and actions is one of the most complex task....... BUT that is the minimum requirement around here.



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peter theil - thank you brother.

You are an experimental evidence for me. I do not know you personally, but whatever you have shared with the world has been sufficient to prove my experiment.

I had been waiting for someone to be open about business. Someone who does not talk about the tactics but the fundamentals.

The day I heard your opinion, I got convinced. It took some more days before I got enough evidence that yes you fall in that category of people that I have been searching.


I follow power-law on human relations, by that I mean you should have only a few people around you but you should have real people with real ideas who would not be hesitant to speak their mind.

I kid you not, its so difficult to find such people. Even some time I wonder this about myself, that am I trying to be in this category or am I a hypocrite.


Only time will tell, I do not know whether you will ever read this; but I just wanted to tell you that I have learnt a lot from you and you have somehow corroborated many of my own experimental results of the past.  I would like to meet you some day and say thanks personally.

I hope you would join my team that I am building to build the future of humanity.

Keep Smiling

interpretation matters

Everyone has to do something ... otherwise, one would get incredibly bored.

one person says living his/her dream.
other person calls it work.


Think

GO beyond your perceieved limitations

How to achieve this feat...... interesting question.

Given that the only true enemy I have ever encountered is -ME. How do I conquer my own self to keep improving and surprising myself.



THINK

Hacking your brain into doing self control intensive task.

When I was in class 11thor may be twelth... I would practice physics and maths for hours and hours in a day.

I should say that I loved those exercises but after some time it would become boring. I would recognize most of the patterns in question and that would bore me even further.

This phenomenon is dangerous... because your brain could potentially fool you in not solving those problems where your assumed patterns could have been wrong.

After some time I had devised an ingenious method hack my way around that problem.

I would pick a number of questions that I would do in a particular sitting, and I would compel myself to practice enough question every day while listening to epic music.

Even though, on the conscious level my brain new that I was more or less doing repetitive thing but as I had complemented it with a passive activity that I enjoyed doing; I was able to pull it off, to a large extent.

After many year I heard Dan Ariely( Duke University, psychology proff)
who suggested that he had devised a mechanism to work on delayed gratifying activities.

When I heard that speech on TED, I was like.... WTF ... I have been practicing this thing for ages. Just because some proff. from a reputated university is saying the same thing, I am more convinced about the fact.


From now onward, I will learn to trust my own experimental result.... even more.

As some proff. in some university would find it later.

I know anecdotal evidence as not considered sufficient, Hence I will document every relevant thought that goes through my mind. So that, if the same thing happens again... the world will have some basis to judge the validity of my assertion.


Keep Smiling... keep improving...
Acquire knowledge , Apply knowledge

Work

At 26, I can say with some surity that the only thing which will persist after we would seize to exist is - Our work.

I loved steve jobs- but he died in 2011. And now whenever I think of him, I can not separate his existence from all the tools he helped build. If you take away all the gadgets he made during his life time, the person remaining is just  another blob of flesh and blood.


People who would understand that would be the most important entities in your life.

Keep real people around you... be original and help others being original.

You are your work.

This programming is pissing me.....

First I learnt about python, then I learnt about php, then I learnt about codeigniter , then I have to learn bootstrap... then javascrip... then ajax .....blah.. blah...

But I heard someone saying a simple thing, programming is just another way of thinking. It is not about knowing all the answer before hand. IT never is.

You have to have enough strength of character to look for answers till the time you solve.
There are many sages on the net who have had similar problem as you are having. They have shared their knowledge for a purpose. So that newbies like you could learn from their journey.


If this system would have been about cramming shit in your head, I would have hated it.

Its not about knowing everything before hand...... relax.. don't get pissed off... it is really natural to not to  know things.


This is somehow hard to get your head around.

Think of it this way- your education was for giving you tools to solve unknown problems that you would encounter in life.

Similarly, if you understand how things work on a meta level in anything that you are trying to build in any language and in any platform. You just need to look for details on the internet.

This is perfectly normal.... just keep going.... the tougher the path... the higher the triumph.

Your goal right now is to get things done.

Ther is no way that you could understand everything at this point of time.

You have read that many professional programmers have to look for implementation of things. Its simply the way this thing is designed.

Lets use our old tested method- let your questions be the guiding light for your quest.. do not let any question be unanswered... but you could decide the priority.

I really love writing these short experiences. It helps me spread the message and gives me an ability to see my struggle and progress.. both at the same time.


Thank you
Keep Smiling

The second hardest thing to be done in life

I will use self control to make a habit of living in the present moment.

I have been conducting an experiment for past 4 years, and results are absolutely conclusive. Brain has to be in the present mode - always.

Everything else is dreaming.

lets see how long it takes to build this habit.
Keep Smiling

If all we have is each other, then lets learn from each other.

I want to make a sentence that encompasses everything that I want to have in my nature.


Let individual or group of individuals(American) be free to think and dream anything(Indian), work their butts off to achieve those dreams(Japanese).

I have come across these three cultures in my life time, each one of them have some sort of effect on me.

American - individual freedom ( I have it)
Indian - Depth of analysis and thinking ( I was born in this environment, I have it)
Japanese - dedication to the work at hand. ( I have to work on this, practice harder)


Thank you ... everyone.

Deep urge for sharing

I have this unsatiable urge to share whatever limited knowledge I possess. I will share my knowledge by doing and helping others doing what they want to do.


I believe there is only one kind of learning..... Experiential.


keep smiling.

My heroes

when I was small, i was always searching for examples. Examples that would resonate with my dreams.I had been a big fan of these comic heroes and specially, batman. But I never could found people in real life who had strength of character to do the right thing, instead of doing the easy thing.


It was very late that I came across a few such individuals. Newton, faraday(my hero), edison, enistein, feynman, carl sagan( thank you kanishk, for introducing him to me),bruce lee, danial kanhman, steve jobs, etc.

I have learnt a lot from you. Thank you.

I do not know what will I measure upto. I do not know that I will ever do anything meaningful by my standards. But, your company has taught me that one can aspire for greatness in their work.

As the man in the arena, all your actions will always be short of your ideal. But you have taught how to pick myself up and fight again, and again, and again.

For seven years, I have been searching for any power that humans possess. I found one, but at the cost of my late teens and early to mid twenties. It has been a fabulous journey. I have seen myself changing. I never had a doubt the path, after all it was a calculated risk. But I did not ever know that I would ever reach the core of what it means to be human - self control.

Let me give you an example- I know it is true for a fact.


Once we embed  a thought in our head, there is no power in the world that can force us to change our mind. This level of control is unique to human, as per my research.

One more interesting thing that I came to realise about humans is that we are immitators.
Humans are endowed with something called mimmick neurons, which allows us to copy others behaviour. I take it as a salvation message for the humanity. That some fool could aspire for achieving the best in humans, given enough exposure and time ; other fools will join him/her.
Till the time humanity will have at least one fool to devote his live towards imporving humanity, society has a chance to improve. Mimickery is both a curse and a blessing.

I am to create a group of humans who will work to improve society. I fundamentally believe that technology has potential to improve lives of millions. We just need to understand connection between the technology and human necessity.

I do not know I will be able to achieve that goal. But I will walk the talk first so that whoever will join me later will have at one model to aspire for ..... to look up to at least one stupid who knowingly chose the  untrodden path... to say that I know about a stupid who failed a gazzillion times to take humanity to the next level.


My heros.... I will always be in debt.... one day I will join you.... one day I will be better than you.
All my teachers in the past wanted me to be better than them, I want my people to be better then me as well.

Keep Smiling

Experiment is your friend

Only an unbiased experiment could tell  you the truth about the thing you are trying.

Measure self control

I needed a method to measure how much self control I possess. I came up with a simple idea, I wanted an objective method to compute self control in any individual.

But  there was a small problem, by definition self control is subjective in nature.

I thought really hard, but could not come up with some kind of a objective test.

After a while something struck my head, even though not perfect but the method i devised could work for now.

Give following simple instructions to anyone and check how long he or she could do it-
1) sit comfortably on a cushion.
2) keep you back straight.
3) close your eyes and focus your attention in the middle of your eyebrows(place is not important, process is).
4) you may sit for as much period you want.(no external pressure should be applied, the process is completely voluntary)
5) the longer you sit the more self control you possess.

Having a power is one thing and being able to apply it in a particular direction is another thing, but ar least it is a start.

I will try to refine the process of computing self control.
I tried today and I was able to sit for 2 hours.

For me duration is not so important as much as the process. It helps you focus your attention to the only thing you want to focus in that period of time. I have done this in the past hence I can tell you that over period your concentration power improves and your ability to give your entire self to anything increases exponentially.

Thank you, Budha.

Lets Experiment and Apply it in life.

Everything is an opportunity to increase your self control

From today onwards, everything will be an opportunity to increase my self-control.


That is the currency of life for me.


bring it on!

Keep Smiling

we never forget our negative experiences

We could use it as a tool for the mind. If we attach the most negative experience with something positive, everytime we will think about that negative experience we will have a choice to look at the positive side of the experience.

It can even help us in achieving things that we previously thought impossible.